suicide awareness!♥

a choice you have to make.

her heart beats faster and faster.

she grabs the blade and waits for the sharp edge to cut into her skin.

shes ready, for whatever may come.

one cut,

two cuts,

three cuts,

four,

why couldnt anyone realize she was suffering more and more

as each day passes.

she writes letters to everyone she is "close to." her dads letter is first.

dear daddy.

your reading this so im sure that the worst has happened. im sorry for the pain I have caused you. im sorry daddy that I couldnt be who you thought I was going to be. im sorry for the tears you seen me shed. i was unhappy dad, but dad just think im happy now. none of this is your fault. i tried to stay strong. but its hard. I love you dad. and you did nothin wrong.

                                                                              -love your baby girl.♥

she cries and sets the note on her bed, next was her little brothers note.

dear brother,

you are perfect in my eyes. Im sorry that I left you in this world alone, to go through this hell on your own. just promise me you wont do what I did. dont listen to what anyone says be who you are. dont let the razor blade paint a picture in red on your arm. I miss you already and im sorry.

-love your big sister.

she sets that one on the bed too.

she cries and picks up the razor.

moments pass by and then..

her dad hears a thud comes from upstairs and runs to see what it was.

his babygirl had bleed to death and he is witnessing the mess, he cries.

he knows he could have stopped it. he calls 911. then notices the notes he reads his and realizes.

she needed him. she needed him and he wasnt there for her.

he could have stopped this. he places a kiss on her head and leaves the room.

so much for staying strong.