suicide awareness!♥

should I...?

  I want to forget.

  I want every single memory to leave me, all I can think about is every bad time I have ever been through.

  Every boy thats used me, every boy thats said they loved me.

  Every "Best Friend" that said they would have my back.

  Should I leave? should I run away from every problem, or should I stand and fight?

  I want to grab the blade and end it, but how could I? I try to forget every feeling, but its addicting.  Every thin slice, every blood soaked arm, it all feels so right, but looks so wrong.

  I dont need it, I dont need it, I.... do I need it? Do I need the razor to get by?

  Should I tell someone, or just act like everything's okay.

  one cut, it feels so right. and no one seems to notice, If I make one more no one will notice.

  two more cuts, should I stop?

  a thousand cuts later and they are harder to hide. Its easier to pretend im okay.

  should I leave this Place? no one would know, would anyone even care?

maybe this IS how I go.

  should anyone ever feel this way though? thats the real question.