Sometimes I feel so alone. And you ask me why. Cuz you say I have friends, I shouldn't feel lonely. But when you question me, I feel worse about myself. I start to feel like I'm doing all this for attention. You make me feel like I'm nobody and that nobody cares. But I can't tell you why I feel so alone. Because friend, even I don't know why I feel this way.
I guess it's because you left me that summer. You had to do more important things. Yeah work is important, but I was left alone on the weekends to. Left me alone, with only my brothers. I couldn't leave the house, I couldn't have people over.
I guess it's because no one could love me. And I couldn't love anybody else. I mean, you tell me I won't have any friends anyways. But hey, that's a story for a different time.
I'm standing here, trying to ask you for help. But I can't. Cuz I know you'd only ridicule me. I'm standing here trying to get myself help. But I can't cuz I don't trust you. I'm standing here trying to make you realize that I'm hurting. But I can't cuz you won't listen. I'm standing here pleading for help. But you won't listen cuz your to deaf to hear my cries.
I'm standing in front of my family putting on my smile, my best act. But I don't know how long I'll be able to keep it up cuz it hurts so much.
What I guess I'm trying to say is that I've been pleading and fighting for to long. And I need someone. I've been crying for help but no one hears me.
I'm trying to say that I need your help. And the only way I'm gonna get through it is with you by my side. Will you help me?
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The dark parts of my thoughts
RandomThis is just my thoughts, poems/spoken words, art work, my own personal stories, and some of my life. Therapy only seems to help a little, considering I barely talk. So let's see if this helps at all.
