I'm His to Taste - NatePat {ON HOLD}

{Chapter 6: Memories that Created my Monster}

Matthew's POV

Perfect...just PERFECT! Chris and Jason just happened to stop over right when I was in the middle of having my fun.

Within seconds, Jason was ripping me away and holding me back. Nathan gasped loudly, coughing hard and began sucking down air. Chris went to check his pulse when Nathan screamed and tried to get as far away from Chris as possible.

"N-No! Please! D-Don't take anymore blood fr-from m-m-me!" Nathan cried out, shivering in fear. "I c-can't take m-m-much more of th-this!"

"Oh my god Matt!" Chris said appalled at Nathan's condition. "What have you been doing to this poor guy?"

"Where are the keys to his chains?" Jason yelled in my ear.

I stayed silent as Jason dug his nails into my skin and began to tear it. I hissed in pain, trying to pull myself free. Jason was a much older and stronger vampire than I was so I knew that sooner or later I might give in.

"Matthew," he said, digging his nails in deeper, splitting my skin and creating a searing burn in my arm. "The keys. Now!"

"Fine!" I rasped out as he removed his nails from my torn flesh. I took the keys out of my back pocket as my wound sealed up, healing itself as I begrudgingly gave over the keys.

Jason tossed them to Chris who was desperately trying to calm Nathan down.

"It's ok now. We're not gonna hurt you." Chris soothed as he unlocked Nathan's chains.

As soon as Nathan was free he curled up into a ball in Chris's arms and openly wept. Chris hugged him as he rocked back and forth, trying to relax him as best he could. Chris was always good with that sort of thing, he had a way of making his patients so at ease when he was with them.

"How could you do something like this Matthew!?" Jason screamed at me, forcing my attention back to my dilemma at hand. "Look what you've done to him!"

I refused to look over at Nathan...I didn't want to face what I'd done to him.

"I thought we had this under control!" He screamed at me, making me jump. "He's a person! Someone who has a life, friends and family who are probably worried sick about him! Why would you let yourself lose control like this? How could you do such a monstrous thing?"

I looked over at Nathan in his fragile state and in an instant I felt an earth shattering amount of guilt for what I'd put him through crash down on me. That feeling i'd felt before, that small fluttering in my heart I'd been trying so desperately to ignore was back, stronger than ever.

What had I done? How could I ever want to hurt Nathan? I wanted to love him. I wanted to care for him and spoil him, make him feel like a prince...my prince...oh how I've tainted that sweet pet name among others! I desecrated his body, stole his blood by the pint for my own selfish desires...I tried to make him mine by force...what was wrong with me!?

Then Jason said something that made my guilt multiply...

"What would Stephanie think if she were still alive and she saw what you've done?"

Silence filled the room, only broken by Nathan's small sobs.

Stephanie...my loving wife and best friend...I missed her so much. I can still remember that day like it was yesterday.