Cyn's Point Of View|
"So are you not going to talk to me the whole night or--"
Nicki hissed, "Cyn, shut the fuck up."
"I'm just asking because if you're going to act like this all night, I can just leave."
"Then leave, Cyn. And as a matter of fact, don't come back. I don't even wanna be bothered with you."
"What you mean 'don't come back'? You're not the only one paying bills here."
"I don't wanna be with you anymore." She says, folding her arms and biting on her bottom lip.
Every since I told her about sleeping with another person, she has been acting shitty towards me non-stop.
And I get it, I deserve it, but this is not what I want. I don't wanna lose Nic... she's literally everything I need and more, but I'm just so damn greedy.
I want Erica too. And I can't have them both.
"What?" I frowned.
"You heard me. I said I don't wanna be with you anymore. I don't think I can fully forgive you for what you've did. I don't know if I can trust you right now."
"I told you the truth! You act like I kept it from you. I know I fucked up and put you down, but I promise it was all a mistake."
"Still, I can't forgive you and forget so easily. You have to earn my trust back." She sighed, putting her head in her hands. "Who was the person?"
Shhiiiiit! I never told her who it was, or if it's a male or female and I was hoping she wouldn't ask.
Might as well strike me now.
"Uh.. huh?"
"If you can 'huh', you can hear."
"Erica..."
"Erica? Oohkay, so you slept with another girl, knowing how I feel when it comes to other females being with you. Who the fuck is Erica?"
"She's just a fri--"
"Don't! Say that lame ass 'oh, she's just a friend' shit. You should know better, so I'ma ask you again. Who the fuck-- is Erica?" She grits.
She was in my face and I was getting hot. I couldn't rat E out, and I wasn't going to. This whole thing could go left and God knows what after that.
"Alright, you don't wanna tell me, coo. I'm leaving."
"Wait, no, babe. It doesn't matter, you shouldn't have to worry about that."
"You slept with her! But it doesn't matter? So why the hell did—"
Her last words were muffled by my lips attacking hers. I didn't wanna hear her talk anymore, so I did what anyone else would have.
"Mmmh- move, Cyn!" She tried to fight me off, but I pinned both her hands down over her head roughly.
It didn't take long after that for her to move her lips in sync with mine. Then, I felt metallic taste in my mouth and pulled away from her, still keeping her arms up.
She fucking bit me. Hard too!
"Get off of me!" She screams, kicking her legs while trying to loosing her hands from my hold.
"Princess, stop fighting." I spit out the blood drawn and tighten my grip on her wrist.
"You're hurting me." She whimpers.
"I don't care."
"Baby, please don't do this."
"Now I'm baby again?" I chuckle.
I scoot further up above her torso and ease one of my hands to her neck, wrapping my fingers firmly around. She yelps and stops her little tantrum.
"Don't do what?"
"Cyn, please. Stop."
"Cyn? Now I'm Cyn again, huh?"
"Baby--"
"Onika, make up your fucking mind."
She gulped, "I want you to leave me alone. I don't wanna go there with you."
"Alright then." I tug on her neck, pulling her up to meet my lips again and she kisses back this time with no fight.
I slowly worked my tongue into her mouth as hers brushed so lightly up against mines. Once I felt the wetness of her tears fall onto the top of my lip I stopped.
I'd let go of her other hand and neck and she licked her lips, wiping her face.
"Why are you crying?"
"Because, I'm scared." Her voice cracks and my heart felt like it shattered right then and there.
Dammit, Cynthia.
I moved from her lap and she sat up immediately. I'm going to have to call my dad and tell him we're not making it for dinner.
"What are you scared for?" I ask, pulling her into my embrace.
She sniffles and shifts in my arms on the wide sofa. "I don't wanna lose you, Cyn, I really don't. But the things you do makes me question our relationship. Am I not good enough for you? What did I do to make you wanna go touch on someone else the way you should only be touching me?"
"I'm so sorry, princess. I don't wanna lose you either. I don't want you to have to question our love just because I was being stupid. You're more than good enough for me, and I wasn't thinking straight. We were having problems and instead of trying to work it out with you, I went to get the comfort from someone else."
I held her face up to wipe her falling tears with my bare thumb. "I know you say you can't forgive and forget so easily, and I'm not asking you to. I just want you to know that I know I was wrong and I never wanna be without you. I'll go out my way just to prove to you how serious and sorry I am."
"You know I love you more than anything, but this is going to take a while. I'll need my space."
"That's fine, I guess... Your not kickin' out my place though."
"Whatever. You sleeping right here on the couch." She laughs.
"Why can't I sleep in my room? In my bed? Next to my girl?"
"You wasn't thinking about sleeping in your room on your bed next to your girl when you was with Erica, now was you?"
Burn.
I pout and she stood up, shaking her head. "Tell your dad I'm sorry we missed dinner. I'm going to bed." Nicki began to walk towards the staircase.
I slap her ass one good time before she could leave the living area and she grunts. "I will."
Now, I have to be busting my ass to get back on her good side, while on the other hand getting things somewhat cleared up with Erica.
