You're the only thing keeping me alive.

Okay guys. I want you to know that I'm still in the process of editing and writing these. When I finish the book I'm going to go back and smooth out the rough edges and add titles to chapters etc.

I just thought you all should know why its so crappy right now, and know that it'll be a cool book once i edit. So stick with me.

--Rosemary <3

Prologue ~

I looked at him as I'm chanting in my mind over and over 'this can't be it. This can't be it.'

"We can't... be done." I said trying not to cry, "This can't be the end of... us"

He said nothing. Its not like I expected him to. I took a shaky breath.

"You... promised. You promised me forever. But... you lied" My tears welled up in my eyes and blurred my vision, but I refused to let them fall. Not right now. Now is time to be strong. "Why? Please. I need to know. This... this just isn't enough... I- I- I need you."

I looked up at the stormy sky. Remembering us. Remembering how warm his arms felt... even in the rain.

"Well. I guess. I guess this is goodbye." I pushed my hair out of my face, " I love you, and I always will. Please whatever made you do this, just remember that."

I turned and walked slowly down the slopped wet grass. I hoped that he would call out to me, and chase me then hold me until the rain fades. But that's never going to happen again....

Before I stepped onto the sidewalk, I turned around the take one last look at the new gravestone that sat above the boy I loved, then turned and headed home.

And not once did I shed a single tear...