restrictions - dm au

7:

Mom decided to go to bed, so I stayed with Dad in the living room to watch a movie. We watched "Amelie," which was so good. After that, it was already later than I expected, so I got ready for bed.

Gosh, I wish I could have a chocolate bar right now. I know we have some in the kitchen. I want a Kit Kat. A Snickers. A brownie. But I'm not eating that. I'm not right?

Okay, I didn't have any dinner. That means I can have one Kit Kat.

I tiptoed downstairs, seeing that Dad didn't even have enough energy to get up the stairs to his bedroom, so he fell asleep on the couch. I made myself super quiet, sure to not wake him up. I opened the cabinet, and...

CREEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAKKKK!

Of course the cabinet was creaky. I checked behind me to make sure I didn't wake him up. Phew. I took out one packet of Kit Kats. Quickly, I snuck back up to my room. Ripped open the packaging and munched on the chocolaty wafers. This was the first tasty thing I'd eaten in two weeks.

Fat, ugly, disgusting bitch. You can't control yourself at all, Brynn. You couldn't just be strong, you had to be the stupid little shit that you've always been. So much for wanting to be thin, that's never going to happen if you do this crap. You're nasty.

I gagged. I can't believe I just ate that entire Kit Kat bar. I rushed to the bathroom. Am I going to do this? Yes I am.

I was already gagging, but to really trigger the reflex, I stuck my finger down, and threw up. I felt disgusting. If I just hadn't ate the stupid Kit Kat, maybe I wouldn't have ended up in this situation.

Ugly, fat bitch. You should be able to control this. Too bad you aren't pretty like Kenzie, or especially her older sister, Maddie. Ugly. So disgusting how you just loved that chocolate bar and now you vomit everywhere. Nobody likes you.

My mouth feels so numb, I hate it. I had a cup of water and wiped my face. Maybe it didn't look like it but I knew what I just did.

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