t.g┊diary [✔︎]

8, January 24th, 2017

Dear Diary,
Today in school was an embarrassment..
I'll tell you why:

I was in my classroom, doing Maths. Since Maths was my favorite subject, I didn't really pay attention to the teacher. The bell rung and the usual, the students barge at the door to leave. I walked down the halls to go to Taehyung's classroom and as soon as I walked there, he already had a smile planted on his face as he saw me. I smiled too. I went up to him and greeted him with a friendly manner. He greeted me back with his husky and deep voice as he ruffled my hair. I heard a familiar, female voice called out his name. That's right. It was Eunji... She came up to him and gave him a quick kiss on the lips. I was grossed out when I saw that. It made me wanna puke, right on the spot but luckily I could hold it in.

Tears were coming out of my eyes. Oh god, why now?! I didn't want to become a crybaby, just seeing them like that. A sob came out of my mouth. As I saw Taehyung looked over at me and said what's wrong, I quickly lied and said it was nothing. Eunji said to Taehyung that she wants to go to the cafeteria now. Taehyung said, "What about Jeongguk?" I fakely smiled and said, "It's okay. I'm cool with it." And waved it off.
I looked the other way to daze off for a moment. When, I looked at where Taehyung was but to my surprise, Taehyung was walking to the cafeteria with Eunji, forgetting about me..

I sighed sadly and went the other way to the cafeteria. Once I got there, I saw them locking hands and laughing through the air, in their little own world. I have to admit, I'm jealous. But I can't be jealous over her.. I really want to hurt Eunji but she's too kind, too sweet, too innocent, to hurt someone like her.

I tripped over something and fell to the ground. The stares from people are at me and some of them just don't give a shit and walked past me. I wanted to get up but why get up when I feel useless? So, I stay on the ground, with my hair covering a bit of my face, looking down to the ground and just cry, like a crybaby. I really don't care if people are watching me, having weird looks on their faces, whispering about me and all the other shit that's going on. Cause I'll cry in the end no matter what.

I can't be bothered writing what else happened. Goodnight, Diary.

-Jeongguk

The two boys both stared at what Jeongguk wrote.

"Gguk.. I'm so sorry.. Taehyung spoke as tears fell from his face, soaking into the thin paper.

Edited: 21/March/2018
edited : 16 . jun . 2k19