*After MAGCON*
"That was so fun!" Cassie yelled.
"I know! Now you have a date to get ready for!" I said."TAYLOR?"
"Yes?"
"What shall we do while they are all gone?"
"We could film my new YouTube video."
"Okay!"
We all went our ways into our rooms and I decided I would help Cassie get ready.
*After Everyone left for their Dates*
"Are we gonna film Taylor?"
"Nah, I wanna watch a movie."
"You haven't put up a video in months!"
"Yeah, I know but I really wanna watch a movie and talk for a while."
"Fine."
I went to my suit case and got a pair of purple spandex and my black MAGCON hoodie. I changed in the bathroom then went back and sat on the bed as Taylor put in a movie. He came back and sat with me. I rested my head on his shoulder and he put his arms around me.
"So how did you like MAGCON?"
"It was fun. Maybe tomorrow will be better."
"So what do you wanna talk about?"
"Well today is 3 months of me being clean"
"I'm so happy you stopped."
"I'm just scared fans might see my scars."
"It'll be fine. Can I see them?"
"Yeah."
I rulled up my sleeve and showed him my arm. I looked at him as he started to tear up.
"Taylor. Please don't cry."
"I'm sorry."
"It's not your fault."
"It is my fault. It's my fault that I wasn't there to stop your dad. It's my fault I didn't try to help. I could've stopped him."
"Taylor. Nothing would have stopped him."
3 years ago, I was 13, my mom and sister went to Paris for a school trip. I was left at home with my dad and brother. My brother was at a friends house one night and it was just my dad and I. I was sitting in my room texting Taylor and watching TV when my dad came in my room. A while before this happened my dad would hit me when my mom and sister were around. Jerod didn't care if I got hit. He would just play video games.
Taylor knew about my dad hitting me but I made him promise not to tell. If he would have I would've been killed.
But back to that night. My dad came into my room and then told me to come to his and moms room real quick. I didn't think anything of it. But little did I know I was gonna be raped by my own father. About 2 weeks later I found out I was pregnant. What was I supposed to do, a 13 year old girl. I told Taylor everything that happened then I talked to Sami about it. Sami helped me tell mom which got my dad out in jail. I went through with the pregnancy and gave my daughter, Mia, to a gay couple.
After I was raped though, I began to self harm. I thought it was the answer. It let the pain out. Feeling physical pain, let out my internal pain. It became and addiction. Taylor would try to get me to stop and it never helped. I would cut my hip, anywhere that I could. But once I was about 3 months pregnant I stopped for the rest of the pregnancy. After Mia was born I started back up again. I was 14 when Mia was born. Before my dad ever did that to me, I was popular. I had friends. But once it happend I had Taylor and Sami. But they weren't in my class. They were both in highschool. Sami was a jounior and Taylor was a freshman.
