feelings in words

my life rn

I've been abit all over lately  with my emotions but anyone who knows me knows I dont show many except anger maybe a lot of hate n aggression but my heart is not whole hasn't been whole in many moons a long time ago I lost the one I love with the child unborn inside her n it tore my heart into pieces since that I was happy got engaged to someone that ended and I got depressed a lot more then usual then I met 3 amazing people my dear banshee who I love to bits n adore my dear panda who I hardly speak to but love to bits and then my dear young blood who I love to bits too but the banshee and the  young blood I have strong bond to both ive known them nearly 3 years id be lost with out both of them they both helped me so much n me them but end of the day I can never choose one of them it would kill me to hurt either one of them because they mean so much to me it hurts me to see them go through the shit they do but I always try to help and I'm thankful to them and so proud of them both with  how far they both come in life and what they have been through........ I love you both so much remember that and if all goes wrong you have each other till the end since I dont know how long I have left due to family medical and my own stupid shit just keep your heads up n do proud by yourselves and each other and always remember you can achieve anything from nothing if you put your mind to it.......... Love you all a lot

I'm sorry for all the pain I may have caused.....

Love Stephen John-Dylan Taylor...