...... Well my feelings keep getting in the way of my everyday life my depression is a way at me I can be up one minute then I'd be down till I go to sleep theres only few ways I can handle my depression ones music and two is the people ive surrounded myself with who I can look at and not talk to but know the reason I keep going just seeing my friends smiling faces keeps me going another day but lately theres been so much crap in my life that I can't go on much longer like this its heavy ......
So I just feel run down last night someone made my heart drop when I found something out then for the first time in a long time I felt so guilty for the pain they feel and will continue to feel and I can't do anything about it with out hurting more people in the process so this point I'm gonna keep going to therapy for 2 months n start my job and fuck my birthday off because I hopefully be working instead since my sisters got her diabetes test early hours in morning of my bday so I'll just go graft away at work and come home buy a crate and drink myself to sleep and hopefully I'll feel much better the day after then ive been feeling lately and hopefully therapy will help me get better even if its a step forward in right direction I'll take that as a win
This me signing off for night before bed I wanted to get this shit off my chest because my heart n mind is getting heavy with the burdens I carry and crosses I bare so yeah
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feelings in words
Short StoryI dont do feelings I can't speak them.so imma write them not that it turns out the ways it's ment to....
