Just Friends (Smosh Fanfic)

I Can't Tell You I Love You

Anthony's Pov

"Because he freakin' broke my heart!!! You know how much it hurts Ian?!?!" I heard Alyssa scream starting to cry.

It broke my heart. Suddenly my phone beeped indicating that I had a new message.

"Hey babe! We still on 4 2night?💋" I sigh it was Meghan my girlfriend.

I hooked up with a girl to mend the pain that I felt.

But now I'm having mixed feelings over Lyssa and Meghan.

I mean I love Lyssa but I'm starting to like Meghan a little more you know?

"Yeah. We're going 2 Moxie's, kay?" I texted her back.

"K! C u there babe!💋" I semi-smiled. I think I'm in love with her- no I love Lyssa. Right?

I walk back in the hallway and listened in in Ian's and Lyssa's conversation.

"He'll never love me Ian. Ever. He-he-he has Meghan. And I doubt he loves me." I heard Lyssa say.

"Come on Lyssa. I know he loves you!" Ian said.

"Sure. I'm going to go talk to him." Lyssa retorted opening the door.

I stumbled back and she looked at me in surprise. Then she quickly turned her look of surprise into a look of seriousness.

"Anthony, we need to talk." Lyssa said softly leading me to my room.

Ian looked up from what he was doing and slowly walked out giving me a sympathetic smile.

"Hey." She said softly sitting on her bed.

"Hey." I reply quietly. I really have missed Lyssa.

"This hasn't been the greatest days for us, huh?" She chuckles dryly.

"Nope." I said looking down at my shoes.

"We obviously know why everything went to crap, don't we?" She spoke folding her little baby blanket over and over again.

"Yea, we do." We stay quiet for a while. I honestly don't know how this conversation will end.

"I-I-I'm sorry Alyssa." I whisper.

She shook her head, a weak smile forming on her face, "Don't." That broke my heart a little.

She cleared her throat, "Do . . . Do you feel something for Meghan?"

"I . . . I don't know." I stuttered. "You don't? It's a yes or a no." She said incredulously.

"I don't know. I just met her and things turned out better for me." I said.

"Excluding me." She muttered under her breath.

"I-I-" I stuttered but then closed my mouth.

"You did it Anthony. You just fell in love with a different girl all over again. Forgetting me." Her voice shook a little but she didn't bother to hide it.

"I get it Alyssa. I get it. I screwed up. I turned everything to crap." I stood up, "I went to hook up with Meghan and everything changed. We changed after one problem. My mind is full of crap." I sigh.

"It doesn't have to be crap. We don't have to change." She said softly putting her hands on my face.

"I don't know what to do." I whisper. I truly mean that. I don't know what I feel about Lyssa or Meghan.

"It's easy Anthony," she whispers, tears falling from her eyes. Her eyes look like she's debating something, "I love you Anthony. I love you so much. We can forget all that happened. Start over. I thought about it this week. I don't want to fight. Just say it back. Say it back and it'll be better." She said it with so much emotion. She meant it . . . But do I feel the same?

"Lyssa . . ." Her eyes water, tears threading to fall, "Just say it, I love you."

"I can't, Alyssa . . ." I say, my voice shaking. Her face drops and her hands move away from my face. She steps back. "Lyssa . . ." I step closer to her.

She lifts her hand up, asking me to stop. "Please," she shakes her head. I walk closer to her but she put her hand on my chest to stop.

"I know this is your house and I have no right to do anything in this house but please . . ." She said, pure sadness in her voice. "Please leave this room."

"Lyssa," I whisper.

"Please!" She begged opening the door avoiding me. I stare at her for a few seconds before leaving.

Tears leave my eyes as I walk into my living room where Bethany and Ian sat waiting.

"Bethany go to her." I say softly. "Anthony what going on?"

I ignore them and walked outside and got into my car.

I start the ignition and drive away. Leaving everything behind me.

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A/N Hey! I cried writing that but I hope you cried reading this! Well bye!