The long distance

My plan

Honestly I can't take life anymore. I grab a piece of paper and start writing: 1. Dads shotgun 2. Mattress 3. Tomorrow at 4:30. I look at it and started crying then folded it and put it in my pocket. Then I hear a knock on my bedroom door. ''Abbie I'm going to be gone for all today and tonight so your going to spend the night at Aarons!''my mom said
and you don't even know what Is going through my mind.
So eventually my mom got me into the car. We finally get to Aarons house and he leads me to a spare bedroom without saying a word. So I just sat for 3 hours staring at the piece of paper I wrote. Then Aaron comes in and says ''what's that?'' And I fold it and put it in my pocket. ''What do you want anyway?'' He reaches out for my hand and he starts to cry ''I'm sorry I really am''. I was confused but that's when I started to cry. We probably just held each other and Sat their for about 2 hours. Aaron wakes up first and finds the piece of paper on the floor Aaron grabs it and starts reading but then I wakeup and Aaron is just staring at me. He trembles multiple times ''no no no no no no no''. I grab for his hands to hold to give him comfort but even he jerked away...
He didn't say a word to me it was about 3AM and he comes in. He looks me right in my eyes and I looked back honestly you get lost in those eyes. Then he says ''why.. Abbie?'' Then very quietly he says ''Abbie?''. And I reply ''what?''. '' I love you ''. Before he has time to say anything else I place my lips onto his and oh his soft lips against mine he truly made me feel wamted.