Questions That Can't Be Answered

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Levi's POV:

Why did I even agree to go to this stupid party? To waste time? No. To have fun? No. To see him? Why would I even want to be near him to begin with? The man that torments me every chance that he gets. I can't even stand to look at him anymore. I can't look into his eyes, those beautiful yet hateful eyes. So why am I going?

"Levi! Hurry up, Armin's almost here!"

"I'll be down whenever I'm finished, quit being so annoying. And stop fucking yelling!"

I didn't mean that, Mikasa knows it. Right? I know I can be harsh sometimes, but it's a defense mechanism, my defense mechanism. I don't mean half the things I say. But yet they still come out, they always come out. Maybe that's the reason why Eren left.

I glanced at the clock and saw it was 6:57, the party starts at 7. I better get my ass downstairs before Mikasa kills me. As I'm heading down I saw a familiar blonde figure sitting in the living room. Too familiar. His face immediately lit up once he saw me as he pushed his glasses back into place.

 His face immediately lit up once he saw me as he pushed his glasses back into place

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"Levi! I haven't seen you in a long time. We never hang out anymore, how have you been?"

So polite, so innocent, so pure, I will never understand why he's involved with me. He's always been that way, even as a child. It's been too long since we've talked.

"Levi, are you alright?"

"Huh?"

"You just looked as if your mind was elsewhere." He's right, nothing gets past Armin, my mind was elsewhere. It was in the past, when I was happy, when I was alive.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Let's just go, Mika you're driving."

I turned towards my sister and our eyes met. She looks so sad, I can't stand that. She knows what I was daydreaming about all too well. Please don't pity me sister. I quickly pulled my attention away and focused on getting to the car. The drive was painfully long and the dead silence certainly wasn't helping. We finally pulled up to Mike's house. It was huge and completely lit up. The streets were vibrating from how loud the music was playing from inside. Each of the surrounding houses windows were completely closed and filled with irritated faces, eyes directed towards the source of the loud noises.

"Okay, everyone out of the car."

Mikasa was so enthusiastic about being here, I didn't want to take that away from her. I just have to stay away from any fights. I just have to stay away from Eren. Sounds easy enough, I think.

As we walked up to the door I started to feel anxious. I try to shake the feeling when I push the door open. People tend to leave their houses unlocked for these types of parties. We stepped inside and it was already just overwhelming. It's so loud, it's really bright and there are too many fucking people. I absolutely hate it here, it's the complete opposite of my comfort zone, I wasn't use to it.. At all. I could just fake a headache and go home. No, that wouldn't be fair for Mika or Armin. I'll just pretend like I'm having a good time and everything will be fine once it's over.

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