Today I saw you smile,
All 32 teeth and stretched lips
And I almost forgave you.
Last night I dialed your number on my dimly lit little screen.
I imagined pressing my ear to it and listening to your steady breathing like listening to oceans toss in tiny pink shells.
And I almost said hello.
This morning I was fixated on the slight indented crease of your elbow where my hand used to rest so perfectly
And I almost reached out to touch you.
But then I remembered the glimmer in your eyes when you glanced right past me
And I turned to see that the warmth coloring your cheeks
was for that other girl.
You know, that one that wasn't me.
This evening I saw something in my reflection
That didn't belong to me.
It was this downward slope of my gentle smile
Turned to a frown by a love that loved another.
And that was when I knew I couldn't be mad at you any longer,
Because everyone deserves the butterflies I know you're feeling right now,
And so I did forgive
But that doesn't mean I'll ever forget you.
