As time went on Shanelle and Ray became close in terms of working together. Shanelle got job working for a magazine called Juicy and she became the head of the fashion section in the magazine and since Ray own a fashion and modelling agency he was able to assist Shanelle whenever she needed the help. Shanelle still feels insecure because she didnt want Ray to turn into a Daniel especially when Ray is stressed out so she would just make him something to drink and stay out the way. Ray , on the other hand still never opened up to her about what he has been wanting to tell her but he always reminds himself that timing is everything and when she asks him about it he always says that he forgot.
Ray POV
OK look, i never forgot about what i wanted to say but i just dont know when to tell her and truth is that i am running out of time. I need to get this off my chest before its too late. As i sat on my bed thinking Shanelle walked in.
Shanelle: Ray are you ok?
Me: yea why?
Shanelle: you look like someone told you today was your last day on earth( she leaning on the wall with a smirk)
Me: Nah i'm just thinking about stuff
Shanelle: is it work? is it just stress?( she took pause and had a sad look on her face that made me worry) is it me?
Her sadness made me even more upset and i couldnt bare to see her in that state
Me:What? No...its definitely not you..come here ( she was hesitated as first but then came to sit on my bed next to me)
Shanelle: you dont have to hide. If its me then just say so and i will be out of here tonight( she said tearing up)
i held her hands and lifted her head up and looked into her icy grey eyes and said
Me: It could never be you
And with that our lips met for the first since high school. I felt spark of our emotions fill the room as our lips intertwined. Her tears fell and the taste of salt slipped into the kiss. I deepened the it by pulling her closer to me and she caressed my face with her small, soft and baby-like hands. At that moment anything and everything was blocked out and it was as if two souls came together with the universe to be bonded for eternity. She pulled away and looked into me eyes with mixed emotions of shock, lust, love and confusion but also sadness. We looked each other in the eye for a short while until she quickly ran out with tears. i ran after her and stop her before she reached her room. I gently grabbed her arm making her turn around.
Me: Shanelle i can explain. I wanted to tell you that....( GCO)
Shanelle: Just stop!( she said loudly)
There was a bit of silence until she spoke again with a soft tone
Shanelle: Ray i cant. I really can not right now, ok!
Ray: what exactly cant you do?
Shanelle: i cant pretend anymore. i cant stand here and say that what just happened and what i just felt was not real. i cant look you in the eye and say that how i feel now is exactly how i have been since that night with Diggy. I wish i could explain it exactly but i cant.( she took a pause to look down and then back at me) Truth is, I love you Ray. ever since high school ive been loving you and I never wanted to believe it until now because i didnt think that you would feel the same and even now i still think that But i would be fool if i didnt let you know that because i'm through hiding it.
i was too shocked to even say something that i just stood there
Shanelle: i dont know what i was thinking but i will be going now to give you your space
As she turned to enter her room i pulled her to me and kissed her so passionately. She looked at me with confusion
Me: I love you Shanelle...i dont know why i waited this long to tell you but i have been feeling this way since i saw Freshmen year. I guess i hid my emotions because i was afraid of rejection and when you got with Diggy i felt that you still wouldnt give me the time of day in college. Thing is i saw your hurt and i felt your pain and the fact that i didnt do anything about it sooner makes me angry at myself. I would give anything and everything to be with you because i know you that you know that i am nothing like Diggy. I would never put my hands on like that and i would never make you feel worthless. Instead i would make you feel on top of the world if its possible and show you nothing but care because you mean everything to me. I just need one thing from you...
Shanelle: Whats that?( she said wiping her tears away)
Me: Say yes to be being mine...
Shanelle: Ray are you sure you want me to be your girl?
Me: More sure than i have ever been about anything in my life, just please say yes
Shanelle: Yes Ray, I would be crazy to say no( she giggle and kissed me)
Me: I Love you Shanelle
Shanelle: i love you too Ray
That night we slept in my room and No we did not have sex. I didnt want to ruin our moment of admiring each other's presence. That night i was just happy to have the girl of my dreams in my arms at last.
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أدب الهواةI thought that there was no such thing as love. I thought that it was nothing but a word that's part of the English language but i was wrong. For years i was beaten, abused in all ways and used for sexual pleasure until that one night that changed...
