A Psychopathic Hero. (Budo x Ayano) DISCONTINUED!!!

Realization...

I woke up feeling as if I had gotten no sleep at all. While I slept deeply, my subconscious was apprehensive about Budo. I wasn't expecting him to be in my house, and I can't help but wonder how he got in when I locked my doors. He shouldn't have been able to get in.

I walked around my house to check if there was anyway he might have gotten in. Sure enough one of my windows was left slightly open. I wouldn't have noticed if I hadn't been looking. It was a careless mistake on his part. I have watched Taro sleep before and made sure there was no signs of my presence. He had no reason to be suspicious, but it seemed like common sense.

Taro... thinking about him used to make my heart flutter, now it fills me with nothing but sorrow and regret. If only I hadn't been so careless. He would be alive and happy with me, instead of....

Ugh! Even the thought of him being gone fills me with anger. Not only at Osana, but Budo. The reality of everything was slowly starting to sink in and I hate it. I hate him. I'd rather me be dead than Taro, I couldn't stand the thought of seeing him with someone else, but I can't stand the reality of his death either.

What makes it worse is I can still feel his watching eyes on me.... he's making sure I don't try to end my own life. He's being selfish. Stupid too. He honestly believes that I could ever love him; I doubt I'll love anyone ever again. He took away the only thing that brought a real purpose into my life. I plan on getting my revenge though. I WILL kill him for what he's done to me and my Taro... This, I guess, can be my new purpose. Then there will be no one stopping me...

I walked out of my home with a newfound determination. I could tell he was watching me, the clumsy bastard. His hair was sticking out from a corner. This must be new to him, though i never had that problem. Of course, I don't have those crazy spike sticking a mile from his goddamned head.

"I can see you there you idiot. You may want to brush up on your stalking. I know most of the tricks by now," I said to the corner of my house with no expression. The spikes moves slightly and nearly disappeared. I sighed at his attempt to hide better and started to walk away.

"Hey!" I heard him shout from a few feet behind me, "I thought you were gonna help me sneak better..."

Without even glancing back I replied, "So you can stalk me? How dense can you be?" This guy really was an idiot. First he thinks I can love him, then he thinks I'll go so far as to HELP him!

Next I knew he was walking beside me with a large grin on his face. He said nothing but just stared at me like I was the present he always wanted but never got.

"What is your problem?"

"Problem? Nothing. The exact opposite actually... I'd say more of a blessing."

"Don't use shitty pick up lines on me. They aren't going to work for you," I said almost amused. My mind immediately went to Taro. If he had said anything like that to me I would have been a puddle. I lost my senses when he so much as got near me. Thinking of him, however caused an emotion, as usual. It was different this time however. This was sadness. There was no trace of happiness as I thought of what could have been. What WOULD have been if Budo hadn't taken everything...

I need more than to just kill him. I want to torture him for what he did. Not like those other girls however. No, he needs emotional torture. I'll lead him on, 'Form a bond' with him and then crush it all when I betray him. He will feel pain like never before just as I did. I will hurt him to the point where he begs for mercy, where he begs for death, but I won't grace him with that pleasure. I'll force him to watch as I brutally murder myself when there is nothing he can do to stop it. Then he can slowly starve to death when the food I leave for him runs out as he watches my corpse rot.

A sadistic smile spread across my face as I thought of this. It was the first real, familiar emotion I've shown since Taro died.

"Um, Ayano? Whats with the sudden change of mood?" Budo asked with a confused expression.

"Oh, nothing. Just thinking that i may actually tolerate you...." I said with a small, cute smile.

He seemed to believe me as his face lit up and a large smile was plastered on. "Tolerance is a step in the right direction my dear Ayano! You have no idea how happy this makes me! I was worried you would hate me forever with how you've been acting towards me!" He laughed lightheartedly.

I laughed along with him. This may be fun...