Authors Note
This is an entry to the mind over matter challenge and my first work which is published I hope you can relate and learn from this.
Finding yourself in a world where you don't even know how you exist can be hard. Everyone's got a story, you've got a story, I've got a story, we all have.
Sometimes you have everything but nothing, you might disagree and think that if you had money your life would be perfect or if you had the looks your life would be perfect.
The thing is, that as you grow up you start looking at the world from a whole different perspective. You realise that no one is perfect and no one lives the perfect life you imagine they do. But it is too late by that time.....
The thought of looking at the mirror seeing myself, the fat girl, just mortified me. It would feel like someone put a brick on my heart and every time I tried to breathe I forgot how to.
In fifth grade I came home drowning in depths of despair. It was just the worst day ever, there was a girl I really wanted to be friends with, confidence was never something I needed to worry about. I started hosting and playing parts in role plays since I was in second grade. Only if I knew that the first step to confidence is accepting yourself internally. I tried everything to try to be her friend, but she became friends with another girl. That day I thought she wasn't my friend because I was fat.
One day in sixth grade I woke up and looked at the mirror and decided to look at all the beautiful features I had. And how God made me one of a kind. It felt good and I thanked God for all the blessings I had. A year later a friend told me, that the girl who I wanted to be friends with, really wanted to be my friend but she thought I wasn't interested.
I believe that it's good to believe in yourself. But that doesn't mean you forget to try. It's good to believe that you look good but that shouldn't stop you from trying to live a healthier life. To be better and happier versions of ourselves we need to keep a balance between believing and trying.
