Letters to him 💔

Broken Promises

       Do you remember the time that we went to the park together and we were talking about how we pictured our futures and you asked if when thinking about a future I thought of a specific person? And I said "yes, you" because I do.
      Do you remember the answer you gave me when I asked you the same question? Because I do, you said, "Darling you are the only person I have ever pictured a future with, I've never felt anything like this for anyone I've ever been with and I love you."
       You were the first one to say those words. You told me that when we graduated high school you planned to marry me and that this song would be our song. It would be our wedding song because you could relate to the way the song talked about love when it came to me.
     You promised me you would always be there for me and that you would always love me and that you would never break my heart ever.
     Well guess what, you broke your promise. You broke my heart and walked out on me because you "got tired of waiting for me."
      Well if only you knew that I was already yours. All you had to do was ask and I'd be yours, everything was going as planned, we would get married upon graduation and go to college together and have a kid or two but you called it quits. Said you still loved me but were tired of waiting because we hadn't even kissed yet.
     When you tried to kiss me, I was taken by surprise, you would have been my first and I didn't know what to do so I freaked and moved and you kissed my forehead. I'll never forget that day. That day reminds me of what could've been but wasn't.
     You broke the promise you made about waiting until I figured some things out. Well when I did, I was going to tell you but that was the same day you called off everything and you got mad because you thought that I didn't love you and you didn't let me explain that I did and still do. You didn't give me a chance to tell you that I was ready for my first ever relationship and you broke my heart and your promises... But hey I still am stupid enough to love you...
xo
-A