My Secret Journal ♡

April 5th, 2014

What is that special thing that makes you happy. Is it a pair of shoes you saw at the mall? Is it a person that makes your heart and stomach just flutter when you see them or think about them? Or is it someone who you care deeply for, more than to the core in the earth? Or it something that you can't just explain. For me, art and music are my galaxy. When I draw, a new person errupts out of me and the creativity pours out of my pencil onto the paper. I don't draw, I create. Create a new vision and a new personality for me and for others. There is also music. Music is me. It's who I am and I can't change that. I listen to music for at least two hours a day, especially when I write like right now. When I listen to music, it's hard to stop. I'm addicted. I'm an addict. It was there for me when my friends, who I thought were my friends, actually weren't. I idolize music. I love all genres of music except for Opera music and Classical. They're good, but I prefer the other ones. I love the indie records you could listen to while sitting on a window bed in front of a big city like New York and read, but I also love those other ones that scream in your ear drums and you forget everything. When I'm at school and in class and I'm listening to my ear buds, it takes every pure ounce of energy in me not to blast it and block out the world. Art and Music was there for me when I had some really ruff times this past year that I never told anyone about, because I'm afraid. Afraid that they'll think I'm crazy and I need help. I'm sorry, you're the one that gave me depression and now you want to help? They helped me get back on track and get back to me. When you find a day where the sun just isn't shining, think of another day when you were feeling that way, and what helped you? Was it a book, person, song or a thing? Just don't give up, please, ever.

April 5, 2014

Please, remember you are beautiful and one and only just like a snowflake and don't give up, please.