Being part of the loved school couple definitely has its perks. To be able to sleep with and deceive others was one of the biggest. It's fun to watch someone try to spread the truth about how much of a cheater you are and get shut down by everyone. It's fun to watch them needlessly struggle for someone who would believe them despite knowing that nobody would. It's fun watching people's social life descend into madness. It was nice to see how all they got was hate from everyone else. It's funny to see where trying to tell the truth would get them as how could anyone suspect the greatest and most loving couple in school of being anything but perfect.
Min Yoongi and Kim Taehyung. We were anything but perfect but it felt great knowing that others thought that of us. I, who released my pain and anger through sex with anyone other than the one I was meant to "love" and Taehyung who vented through the use of fists thrown at the way to happy teenagers in his view. The only thing we were good at as a couple was being destructive. But not even us could he perfect at being destructive.
It's currently Monday and the first day back at school. The last time I spoke to Taehyung was over a month ago but watch great we will be at walking in, spreading lies about the amount of fun we had over the summer, gaze at each other with loving eyes, and at the same time hate it with every bone in our bodies.
This routine that could have been stopped at any moment but we still continue. Why? Because we are afraid. Because once this cloak that shields everyone from the truth of what kind of people we are is taken off, everyone will see. They'll see just how messed up we truly are and we'll stop gaining love. We'd slowly fall into a hole with no way if escaping and give up on trying in general ; and that being something we as people aren't ready to face yet.
8:22
Taehyung: I'm outside. Hurry or we'll be late.
8:22
Me:I'm
coming
As I walked outside to attend school there stood Kim Taehyung. The hidden gangster and damaged druggie. Of course at one point we loved each other but those feeling must've been long gone by now.
"What took you so long?" Taehyung asked in his usual " too good for you" tone.
I just sighed and god into his car ready for pain of pretending to be okay for another day. After the arrival of a new and better couple pretending got harder. It'd be hard to keep up with a couple who genuinely loved each other and cared for one another. That doesn't mean we stopped trying though. However we are close. To just letting ourselves descend into the chaos in our minds and waiting for it to slowly kill us.
A part of me still looks forward to school despite having to fake our way through it. I look forward to being with friends. Our friends Namjoon and Hoseok who are always there despite knowing what we are really like. With them I don't have to pretend to be enjoying myself and I'm sure it's the same for Taehyung. With them me and Taehyung can actually enjoy each others company and be friends without all the pressure of being the "perfect couple" surrounding us. That's why when I see them standing by the school gates I smile. A genuine smile which reminds me of how much my friends mean to me . Taehyung smiles as well. Not because people are looking but because ( like me ) he's happy to see our friends.
With that we walk into school. Me and Taehyung hand in hand with fake smiles on our face trying to ignore all the girls who are screaming claiming how perfect we look and faking our asses to preserve that view.
We thought our act was one of steel. One no one could see through. Of course like most things we do, say or think. That thought was wrong.
