Markson [GOT7 BROMANCE] Part 1

Markson Part 3

####MARK'S POV

I couldn't sleep that night. He kept wondering if Jackson really knew what was on his mind.

If he did, what do I do. I can't face him the same..

And if he didn't, was he ready to hear it?

Should I just forget it? Pretend like it never happened. But I can't. I like Jackson. Can't just push aside the fact that I do.

*The next day

I got up pretty late. There wasn't anything to do anyway.

Washed up and prepared my breakfast. Bread and nutella. Nothing too special. After breakfast I sat in the living room where everyone was. Everyone except Jackson.

"Morning sleepyhead!" JB greeted.

I smiled.

They were watching Superman Returns. A movie I watched a million times already but whatever.

"Where's Jackson? Not up yet?" I asked.

"He got up earlier than us. He's practicing in the studio. He says he wants to be alone" Youngjae told me.

"Wants to be alone?" I repeat.

"Did you two fight? He usually likes to be with you" Jr asked, staring at me until I gave him an answer.

"N-not that I remember" I shrugged.

Wants to be alone huh? Boy this is gonna be difficult.

After a long time deciding if I should go to the studio, I didn't. He wants to be alone, I'll leave him alone.

**Many hours past

By the evening, he still wasn't back yet. Maybe I should text him a message.

"Hey man, where are you?" I typed out. After much hesitation, I sent it to him.

I was too worried about the guy.

"With a friend" he replied shortly.

"Who?"

"You don't know"

"Well sorry for being a busy body"

"K" Jackson ended off.

Well, everybody knows we shouldn't reply to a 'k'. I stopped replying. Immediately I went to bed. I thought maybe to cope with my insomnia, I should see a doctor tomorrow after practice.

** The next day

I didn't even see Jackson the whole of yesterday. Finally I get to see him today at practice.

**

"Bambam your steps are right but it needs a little more energy. Let's try it again" JB mentioned to Bambam while they practice together.

Jackson stayed with the others. Maybe he was trying to avoid me. Like always, I sat alone.

I plugged my earpiece in and tried to relax my mind.

**

Soon, practice was over. I packed my bags in a hurry because I already made plans with my family doctor.

"Hyung, where are you rushing off to?" Yugyeom asked.

"To the doctor's"

In a second, everyone turned to me worriedly. Even Jackson.

"Hyung! Are you sick? Where?" Yugyeom asked.

"Why didn't you say so? I wouldn't have made you practice today" JB said coming forward.

"I'm not sick, don't worry" I was too lazy to explain.

I made my way to meet Dr Kim at his office.

**

"Mark! Been long since I saw you. How can I help you?" he asked and initiated me to take a seat.

"Dr, how are you? I've been having trouble sleeping for over a month now.."

"I can see that! Your eyes are so tired, what happened?" He continued.

"I don't know. I just feel pathetic....inside. Can you help me? I just want to sleep. Any pills?" I requested.

"Well Mark, I'm here to help you and let me tell you something, pills won't solve anything. You want to talk about it?"

"Not really.."

"Mark if you don't think it's safe to tell me, how about I refer you to a counsellor? She'll keep your story confidential. How about it?" He told me.

"But... I'm not crazy.. I just-" I started crying.

I was so embarrassed but Dr Kim took me in his arms and tried to pacify me. All I did was cry harder.

"Mark, I don't think you're crazy just very sad. And you seem to bottle your feelings and that's not very good.."

I agreed to the referral to a counsellor. Maybe it'll help. I won't lose anything..

I took my prescribed pills from Dr Kim and went home. Waiting for the first appointment I'll have with my counsellor.

**

I took the pills as prescribed and

felt the effects after 5 minutes.

** The next day

"So how did it go? What did the doctor say?" JB asked curious.

"Oh you know the usual.. I'm healthy and all" I replied.

"Then why'd you go see him?"

"Just a check up"

"Oh glad you're fine"

I could see Jackson listening even while stretching and facing away. It made me tickle.

**

During our break, I grabbed my phone only to see a text message from Dr Kim.

"Your first appointment with Dr Jung is tomorrow. You'll meet him everyday if possible. I'll pass you the number later so text him when you're available. Good luck!"

"Thanks Dr Kim!" I replied.

**Meeting the counsellor

#### Counsellor's POV

"Hello Mark, how do you do?" I greeted the boy.

"Ah.. H-hello Dr Jung. I do just fine" he replied.

"Let me introduce myself, I'm Dr Jung Eui Chul. I'm from Namhae. Whatever you tell me, I'll keep it strictly confidential. So relax and feel free to tell me anything"

"That'll be good. Thank you for take the time Dr.. My problem is.... I'm gay" he came out with hesitating.

After meeting Mark, I knew he was going to be an interesting person. He seemed shy at first but after a while,

he was more comfortable and able to open up.

"After hearing what you have to say, I'll say my piece. You seem to keep things to yourself a lot. And this guy.. Jackson? Try seeing how he feels about homosexuals. And if he would consider being one"

"Okay Dr, I'll try.. Thanks for today" he bowed and left.

He showed signs of depression. He complained of feeling hopeless, loss of appetite and insomnia. But maybe JUST maybe it was too early to tell.

*To be continued