There are a million pieces of me shattered on the last day our eyes met each other. Those warm greetings every morning were no more heard. I like it because it wraps around my heart like a blanket. I have never touched you. Yet i was longing for it. Waiting for it. Ever since i started to learn about the world. You thought me part of it because you used to be everything. Yet time and distance pulled us apart. My heart did too. I love you. I always do. I heard love stories and the amount of time and patience they invested in it took 10, 20 and even 50 years.
Waiting.
I hope i could do so. But sometimes I'm all by myself and my mind speaks among themselves. I just wish i could just talk to you. Just a little talk to show that you still care and i should bare this feelings for another 10, 20 or even 50 years more.
But we never made it into that depth of the conversation. Not anymore. Remember that time i told you that i might burn if i stayed yet you convinced me to stay. I realized that the star that i adore too much has fallen on me like a meteorite. Detroying of what's left in this ugly soul. Yes. It is ugly.
"they have three hearts: a false one in their mouths for all the world to see, another within their breasts only for their friends, and the third in the depths of their hearts, reserved for themselves alone and never manifested to anybody."
From História da Igreja do Japão vol I pg 173,
written by Father João Rodrigues, SJ
But we've seen the third heart. Both of us. Thus, we could read each other so well that it scares us so bad. But that fear made me love you even more. Unfortunately, you didn't think that way too. So you let me be. Here. I feel a little bit isolated and a whole lot of emptiness.
This made me wonder every second, every day. Where did we go wrong?
YOU ARE READING
Expression of a Broken Mind
RandomTrying not to be selfish. But my thoughts speaks for themselves. So i let them. And i compile them for all of you to read.
