Random Poems/Stories

Casper

Hey there... It really has been a while. I just logged back in after like two and a half years for a little nostalgia and found this. I believe I wrote it as a way to help decipher my feelings and deal with dysphoria. I was (Obviously) questioning my gender at this point, and honestly I'm really glad I had this site to help me work through what I was feeling. 

Just a disclaimer, I do realize now after re reading this just how heteronormative this metaphor is, obviously clothes have no gender and yadda yadda, that's just not where my head was at when I wrote this.

Anyways I hope this can help someone in some way, weather to understand them self or to better understand their friend and what they may be going through 

Imagine.

All your life, you'be worn skirts. 

Every day of your life. 

And all around you, other people are wearing skirts, and some are wearing pants, and it makes sense. and you like it that way. you don't mind wearing skirts because that's just the way things are. You were born to wear skirts, and other people were born to wear pants. 

But then one day, you see an unhappy skirt-wearing person. You ask them why they are unhappy, and they say it is because they are wearing a skirt, and they feel they would be happier wearing pants.

The next day, they are wearing pants, and they look very happy, and you never knew that was a thing you could do before, just, wear pants. 

And the more you think about it, the more you realize, maybe I could try wearing pants, and the more you think about wearing pants, the more uncomfortable you feel in your skirt. 

So you try it out. At first, the pants feel a little weird, but overall, you feel a lot more comfortable in pants than you did in the skirt. You feel much happier. So you go out into the world and say, I am wearing pants! 

But other people give you weird looks, they say, those pants don't look good on you, you should be wearing a skirt. some people don't understand, they say that you're too young to know what you want to wear, or that you're just going through a phase, or that you just wanted attention, and you'll go back to wearing skirts because that's who you really are.

So many people say this that you start to believe them, and the pants begin to feel uncomfortable again, and you think to yourself, they're right. I just saw that other person do it, so I thought it was ithe right thing for me, but I guess it wasn't. 

You go back to wearing skirts, and you feel more uncomfortable and unhappy than ever.