Painful Love:The sequel

Lonely thoughts and broken hearts

Masky's POV
I love my new boyfriend so much! I'm so happy! Toby only brought me down. I'm glad he's out of my life... but something's wrong. He's never with anyone. He's always alone. He sits in his room crying and shaking for hours on end. He sits on the roof and looks into nothingness. His eyes aren't vibrant anymore. They're cloudy and grey. No one knows why. You can barely see his real eye. He won't talk or eat. He shows up with bruises and cuts.  I would feel bad, but he can't feel it so I don't. I laugh at him for being a pussy. He avoids any contact with anyone except Slender. Every week he goes into Slender's office. Only BEN and Jeff know why. But they won't tell us. I'm mean to him because he can't feel it, I need to get my anger out somehow! He doesn't care that I broke up with him! Although... I think he's sick. He looks pale, well paler than usual. He has dark rings under his eyes and when he talks his voice sounds raspy and used up. He doesn't take off his mask or goggles anymore. He can't feel sad... he doesn't feel anything. He's just being a little bitch about the whole situation.

We were at the dinner table eating, except for Toby. He just sat there staring at the plate. He lifted his goggles and rubbed his eyes. They were still so cloudy, I wonder why.
(Ok, so I heard that Toby naturally had cloudy eyes. So I had to make the story go with that. There will be a reason why his eyes are all cloudy)
Toby had headphones on and I guess he was listening to music.  He looked like he was about to cry, from what I saw behind his goggles. I looked at him and chuckled. He looked at me.
"What?" He whispered, his voice also cracked.
"You're a pussy. Why are you always crying? It's pathetic." I stated the truth.
"Masky, shut up!" Jeff said in Toby's defense.
"Why? He can't feel it!" I said. Something seemed to spark in Toby. Either anger... or sadness? But he can't feel.
"I can feel you nitwit!" He yelled at me. I chuckled again and went back to eating. He continued to sit there staring at the table. After dinner everyone went back upstairs except Toby. It was like he was in a trance.
"Freak..." I muttered.
I think he heard me.
"I know." He said sadly. He got up from his chair and went out  side. He climbed the mansion until he reached the roof. I decided to secretly follow him. I watched silently behind him as he pulled out a case of beer from a large box. He opened a bottle with his teeth and began to chug it down. He continued to drink until he went into his second case. He wasn't even old enough to drink yet he's drinking so much! Does he always do this?
"Why? I loved him, and he broke my heart. What did I do wrong? Why did he have to joke around like that? I must've done something wrong for him to hate me so much! Maybe I didn't make him happy enough. I should have done more!" He said as he chugged down another beer. He got up from his seat and looked over the side of the roof. It was a 4 story mansion so it was quite big. He sighed.
"I hope he'll be happy once I'm gone." He said sadly. What is he doing? He spread his arms out wide. Oh no... he tilted slightly forward.
"Toby! No!" I yelled as he fell forward. Then... I couldn't see him anymore. He fell. I looked over the side, worried about the sight I would see. But when I looked over, I saw BEN and Jeff holding a thrashing Toby.
"GET AWAY FROM ME!" Toby yelled as he started kicking. BEN and Jeff held onto him tightly. Jeff looked up  at me.
"Did you freakin push him!?" He asked. I shook my head no and he nodded. Toby got really tired and stopped thrashing around. Tears fell down his face... but he can't feel. I climbed down the house and walked over it Toby and he started thrashing around again.
"Why are you guys being so nice to him?" I asked confused. Jeff looked at me weirdly.
"What do you mean?" He asked.
"He can't feel anything. There's no point in being nice to him. He's just an idiot for doing that." I said cruelly. Jeff looked so angry.
"You're such a jerk!" He yelled.
"You're the one who raped him!" I yelled. I fucked up. We all promised not to talk about that because it was traumatic for Toby, and Jeff already apologized.
"What the heck is wrong with you!? Can't you see what you're doing to Toby!? He's hurting so bad and you don't even care." He said. He can't feel.
"What does it matter? He can't feel it!" I yelled.
"Stop saying that! He can to feel sadness and emotions!" BEN yelled and I shook my head. I looked at Toby who was shaking and whimpering. Something came over me... anger. I looked at him in front of me.
"Pathetic Loser." I said as I kicked him in the ribs. He cried louder and I smirked. That set off Jeff. He tackled me to the ground and started punching me until BEN pulled him off of me.
"Fuck you Maksy!" He yelled full of anger. I walked off into the mansion and into Hoodie and i's room.
"Hey babe." He said sweetly.
"What happened? I heard yelling outside." He said worriedly.
"Nothing, everything's fine." I lied as I kissed his head and slipped into bed next to him. Brian was way better than Toby. Toby was always so cold, but Brian was warm. I think about Toby though. Toby tried his best to make me happy. Sometimes I wish he died when he had cancer. It's terrible I know. But then I wouldn't have had to break up with him. I slept good that night, knowing Toby got what he deserved.
Toby's POV
He had to bring it up. He had to cause scenes to play through my head. He was so cruel to me, yet 2 weeks ago he loved me. I just wanted to make him happy, I didn't know that making him happy would cause my happiness to be lost. I got up from my spot on the ground and walked into the mansion. BEN and Jeff followed. I stopped and looked around the kitchen. I saw a knife on the counter. I looked around me to make sure no one was watching, before I picked up the knife. I looked at it, imagining all the things I could do to make the pain end. The light was off in the kitchen so it was very dark. Someone suddenly turned on the light. I looked behind me to see Ej.
"Toby. Put the knife down." He said sternly. I ignored him and lightly dragged it across my hand, causing blood to come out slowly.
"Toby! Stop that!" He yelled while tackling me. I reached for the knife but he took my hands behind my back. I struggled but failed at escaping.
"Let me go Ej! I want it to end!" I yelled while silently crying.
"It's gonna be ok Toby. It'll be ok." He said reassuringly. But everything won't be ok. The world is crumbling for me. There's no balance. Everything is gone. I've rubbed and scratched at my eyes until my pupil turned foggy. I've cut so much that I faint from lose of blood. I have disgusting scars and bruises along my arms and legs. I cut the scar on my cheek until it stretched to my ear.
I stopped struggling and just laid there.
"Please Ej." My voice cracked slightly. He held me close like how Sally holds her Teddy Bear. Masky used to hold me like this. He would struck my head and play with my hair. Ej did the same because it was calming.
"Why does he hate me so much?" I asked out loud.
"I'm so sorry Toby. He doesn't know what he's doing to you." Ej stated and I nodded.
"Come on. I'm tired. Let's go to bed." He said and I nodded again even though I wouldn't be sleeping. I have terrible nightmares of Masky killing me and me committing suicide. Ej led me to my room and said goodnight. I walked in my room and sat on the window sill. I nibbled and bit at my fingers as I looked out at the dark forest. The stars shined brightly... yet they looked so dull.
-time skip-
It's been a few hours and the sun is tarting to rise. I got up from my spot by the window and went to my bathroom. I looked in the mirror. I was hideous. Dark bags under my eyes, death pale skin, scars. I don't want to look at myself anymore. I brought my fist back and punched the mirror hard. It shattered loudly and I looked at the broken glass that has fallen. I stared there breathing slowly. My door burst open and Ej and BEN came into the room. But I didn't take my eyes off of the shattered glass. I chuckled. My chuckled turned into full blown laughter. Not happy laughter, but insane laughter full of pain. They backed up in fear. Tears sprung from my eyes as I went from laughter to sobs and back and forth. I remember last night I did fall asleep, only to wake up screaming from yet another nightmare.
"Toby... what the fuck man!" BEN said.
"I didn't want to look at myself any more." I said sadly.
"What time is it?" I asked.
"It's 9:36." BEN said. Shit...
"Holy crap I need to see Slender!" I said worriedly. I got up and tumbled out of the room. I was weak from not eating, but I refuse to eat. I tripped and wobbled through the halls and finally made it to Slender's office. I knocked on the door and it swung open.
"Hello Toby." Slender said. I waved slowly and sat down. Slender makes me come to his office one day a week and it's almost like therapy. He listens to how I feel and asks questions. He forced me to eat because I wouldn't willingly.
"How are you?" He asked. I shrugged.
"Terrible" I muttered.
"Did you get any sleep?" He asked and I shook my head no. He sighed.
"I made you food."
"I don't want it."
"You know I'm going to make you eat it."
"I know. But I'm hoping in my head that you let me go so I can continue this sucking life I have." I said.
-time skip-
Slender forced me to eat again and he listened to my problems and what happens at night. I left the room and walked down the hall to my room. I locked the door and sat down on my bed.
'No one loves you'
'No one cares'
'Lyra never liked you'
'You deserve abuse not love'
'Everyone wants you dead'
'Everyone hates you'
'Retarded fatass'
'Pale freak'
'Ugly piece of shit'
'Disgusting scars'
'Ugly face'
'Who could live a whore like you?'
'No one'
I'm done with this shit. I walked into my bathroom and took out all of my pills.

This is it...

The day I die...

Goodbye.