Stay With Me

Chapter 1 : Meet The Loner

Diandra Bernard

Still the same scenario to me.  Right now I'm at my locker taking out my books for my class while the others still engrossed with their group. Just like in the movie. Jocks, cheerleaders, council and nerds groups. They always together. And if you wonder about me which group I belong to don't waste your time because I'm invincible to everyone. I don't even have a friend. People avoid me, I avoid people. Loner loser freak and just name the bad things they always pointed it at me. And the worst thing I used to it. It doesn't affect me at all maybe because there's a part of me admitted that's what I am.

It's not like I'm degraded myself. It just they're saying the fact. Since the kindergarten, middle school and now high school nothing changes in my life. I still the loner Diandra Bernard that living in Love Orphanage. What an ironic life. Love Orphanage but there's no love in that place. Too cold and too lonely.

I can stand that but one thing that really hurt me deeply when couples come to orphanage to adopt child. When I was five there's a couple come to orphanage. Mrs Green our guardian took all the kids around five to seven years old to meet them. The wife look happy when they saw us and stare at me and and for a moment I thought she's gonna bringing me home but I was wrong. The one who took her attention is not me but the girl beside me. They choose her. The cute girl with a mole under her left eye. I doesn't felt anything I thought it's normal not be choose but I still hoping that I'll get adopted sooner.

After three months, a new couple come and I was standing there with wide smile looking them but they only look at me briefly before taking a baby go with them. The same thing happen again and again. And I just realized I'm only an extra to make the line full and to make the couples easy to decide which one they want to adopt. Because Mrs Green know no one will take me. No one will love me even a stranger. I know they'll never choose me but I can't stop myself from hoping that there's a people out there will come and take me with them.

But it's all in the past, it doesn't matter to me now. In one month I'll be eighteen and I'm sure Mrs Green with her pleasure open the door wide for me to live by my own. She will be free from her responsibility as my guardian. Hmm, guardian my foot.

I always thinking about my unknown parents. Why they brought me to this world only to abandoned me. Rather than abort me they let me live in cruel world. What an amazing parents I got there.

I bet my life is sucker more than anyone in this lifetime. People always said everyone have soul mate and if that's true dear God please send me my other half before I lost myself.