Sidemen One-shots

Broken pt1- Sammie

Pairing: Harry

Trigger warnings: Deep, suicide, sad shit cause I'm fucking heartbroken rn

Summary:
Harries in his room, alone, thinking, dark thoughts happen, when you think too much.
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Harry's POV,

My hands shook, tears cascading down my face as the rain poured down onto me, my hair dripping as my clothes were soaked through.

I was sat down on the edge of a bridge.

The final step until I reach my fate.

The only thing that lit up the crashing waves was the big bright moon that looked straight over me. I sighed loudly. Before sobbing, loudly.

I could never have him.

I put my hands to my face, tears instantly splashing against the skin of my hands and connecting to my cheeks.

I want to die.

He knows, he's got to know that I like him, right? I mean, we hug, all the time, we always kiss each other on the cheek, hold hands, sit on his lap, I wouldn't do that if I didn't like him.

I feel disgraced in myself.

I felt the cold breeze slap against my body before rubbing through the cracks of my translucent skin. The cold whipping against my face, no wind, just a very cold atmosphere. I don't normally sob, I don't think I have sobbed this hard in my life in 3 years.

Am I not good enough for you?

I miss him so much and Ive only just seen him, everyone's back at the house, apart from me, said I was going out to get drinks.

But I'm now hanging off a bridge.

He says he doesn't love me, cringes when the guys talk about it, rolls his eyes when the guys do love hearts at us, he claims he likes someone else. But they are a bad influence on him. Mean to him. Mean to me.

I'm so fucking self-centred

I looked down at my phone, before posting that video. Telling everyone that I'm not going to be here for much longer. Kind of making myself have the courage to actually... Jump. My mum and dad aren't alive anymore, that gives me another reason too, as I said.. Jump.

I'm undeserving of life.

I feel so much love towards him, it's unreal, that's why I went to the house, I isolated myself in my room for weeks, but I finally came out and went to see him, see everyone, hang out with everyone, show him my love. But he's just... Too blind, to see it.

I'm sorry for being me.

My phone suddenly started buzzing. I opened up my phone. Seeing my phone instantly blowing up. I opened it. Looking at me getting messages.

I deserve death.

I clicked on the group-chat and my heart, hurts, my whole body, hurts, all over.

Josh: Harry? I just saw your video, what's wrong?

Vik: Harry where are you? What's up?

JJ: we are going to track your phone, the police are on the way don't do anything.

Tobi: Harry don't fuking do this, I swear to god, Harry please we can talk. We can talk, answer your phone.

Ethan: is this a joke?

Simon: Baby? Don't leave us, don't leave me, I'm going to find you, stay safe. Baby stay safe I'm coming, I love you Harry please don't do this.

I shook my head before crying even louder. Sobbing harder. The rain crashing down harder onto my face. The waves below me crashing.