Your Forever Is All I Need ( Chris Motionless)

*All I Need* 18

Lucy POV

"Will you marry me?," he asked intertwining his fingers with mine. "I love you Lucy, so much, more than life. I value you, YOU are my main priority. I will always put you first, always. I dont promise that things wont be broken, but I swear I will never leave," his eyes locked with mine. "Marry me?,"

I nodded continuously smiling, "Yes,"

"Yes?,"

"Yes!," I said louder this time. He picked me up, twirling me around and kissing me. I hugged him tightly as he continued to hold me up. "I love you so much,"

"I love you too baby, always," 

"So you wanna tell the guys?," I asked.

"Of course!," Rob called them one-by-one and they all congrudulated us with enthusiasm. I also called the MIW boys up, excluting Chris. They said the same. But of course Ricky brought up how Chris was doing and what he said broke my heart into bits. I didnt mean to make him feel this way, I was just thinking for myself, doing what makes me happy. Am I wrong for doing that? 

All I could think about was the drama filled year ahead of me. Not a pretty sight. I could sense the jealousy. Ricky told me to meet up with him at the park so I did. 

He was there sitting on the bench, waiting for me until he saw me. "Hey Lucy. How you been? I haven't seen you in ages," 

"I've been great actully," i replied smiling. "You?,"

"Ive been awesome, writing music actually. Chris hasn't been writing lately and im worried Lucy. I really am," he said sadly. "I really- we really need for you to talk to him,"

"What am I supposed to say? Tell him im getting married with Rob and that we'll never be together again?," I shook my head. "I cant do that to him. He's already unstable emocionally right?,"

"Yeah he is. Just go and see him. Go say hi. You guys should go out just as friends,"

"I dont know Rick. I dont think I can do that,"

"Do you even have a reason as to why you dont want to see Chris?," he paused for a moment. "Its the least you can do Lucy. You did break his heart,"

I looked down at my feet, "you're right. I'll go check up on him,"

"Okay good. Tell me how it went afterwards, okay?,"

I nodded and walk away back to my car and drove to Chris' place. I felt tense as I got closer to his house. After a while, I arrived and knocked on his door. 

"H-," He stared at me with big sad, teared eyes. "What are you doing here? I didnt expect to see you until you're wedding," 

He stepped aside and let me in and I sat on the couch. "You heard huh?,"

"Yeah. Congrats though. Im really happy for you. I happy you're happy,"

I could hear it in his voice that he was broken-hearted. "Look Chris, Ricky told me how you were. And he told me not so well,"

"And you care because," he asked irritatedly. 

"Once upon a time we used to be lovers Chris. I stilll do care for you," 

"Oh yeah, then prove it," he said scooting closer to me. Our lips barely an inch apart. "Prove it,' he whispered. He leaned in and kissed me. This was very unexpected. I kissed him back then pushed him away. 

"Chris I cant do this. You know I cant," I said leaving towards the door.

"Oh yeah Lucy!," he said stopping me, grabbing me by the wrist. "Tell me you didnt feel anything in that kiss,"

I said nothing. 

"I know you felt someting, because I did,"

I did feel something. And thats why I had to leave. Before all the feelings would come rushing in. "I felt something Chris. I really did," i cried. I dont know what to do. I love him. And Robert. Im engaged to him for gods sake. 

"Dont cry," he said bringing me into a hug. "Do you love me?,"

I nodded. "But I love Robert,"

He pulled back, "But Lucy, who do you love more?," I stood there. Hoping I would never hear the question again. 

"I-I love Rob more. Im sorry," he nodded. I lied. I didnt love Rob more. I loved Chris much more. "I should go," I whispered. 

I turned around one more time before a left. He had already sat back on the couch, hands over his teared-filled eyes. It killed me seeing him like this. 

"I love you Lucy. Never forget that,"

I left. I left him there crying. And I felt hprrible for doing that. I wish I could go back in there and hold him . Telling him that he's the one for me and that its just me and him. Forever. 

But I didnt . 

4 months passed and I was getting married in 3 hours. I looked in the mirror and admired the reflection. 

"Hey, how's soon to be Mrs. Ortiz," my mom said coming into the room. I turned my head in her direction and smiled. 

"Im great," 

"Your makeup looks great!," Taylor said entering also. Her and Vic were still on, and they were so in love. 

"OKay lets do your hair love,"

My bangs were braided and pinned up with a sequnced pin. I had the diamons earrings Chris gave me a while back. I know right. I shouldnt be wearing my ex-lovers earrings but I loved them. They were beautiful. 

"Now why would you be wearing the earrings Chris gave you at you and Roberts wedding hmmm?," my mom asked putting the finishing touches on my hair. "You dont still love him do you?," she laughed. 

"Of course she doesnt," Taylor spoke up. 

I stared at myself in the mirror. I do love him still. 

"Okay, wedding time!," 

I put my dress on carefully. It was strapless and flowly with a short train. Absolutely beautiful.

"Honey you look wonderfull. Stan, come in here!," my mom yelled, calling for my father.

"Lucy you look perfect!," 

They left to go take their seats in the church. Now everyone was waiting for me. I slowly walked to the closed church doors as the ushers waited for my aprroval to open the doors. I sighed and nodded. They open the doors and everyone stood up and the music played. 

I walked down the aisle slowly as tears fell from my eyes. Chris wasnt here. 

And down the aisle stood Robert, smiling with tears falling also. But we were crying for different reasons. 

I stopped in the middle of the aisle and kicked off my heels. "Im sorry everyone, I cant do this!," I ran up to Robert and kissed his cheek. "Im so so sorry. I cant be with you. Please understand,"

His sat down and covered his face with his hands. "Just go find Chris. I know you still love him. I understand,"

I nodded and ran out the churh doors, still in my dress with my shoes. I ran for the wishing well that we used to go to as teens that was 2 blocks away. I stopped in my tracks as I saw Chris stading there. Back facing me. 

"Chris," I whispered. "Chris!," He quickly shot around facing me, smiling. I ran for him and he met me halfway. 

"Lucy! What are you doing here?," he said picking me up and twirling me around. 

"I gave it all up. I love you Chris," he leaned in slowly and kissed me. I saw fireworks as cliche as that sounds. I really did.