Diary of a teenage Christian (The next chapter)

God chased me down: chapter 9

It's September of 2017, I'm a senior!
But before we get into how the school year is going so far, let's talk about this summer.

This summer I went to camp, the church camp
I go to every summer. As always I'm coming with a lot of baggage. I'm like the queen of baggage.

I felt like God never listened to my prayers, that I couldn't trust Him because bad things would always happen to me, and I felt like I was talking to air.

Long story short, I realized that the reason I've been wrestling with God for so long, was because I didn't truly believe in Him with my heart, I just knew of Him, knew of Him very well, and I wanted the God that everyone was always talking about in my life, so I got saved, or so I thought. Coming to terms with these thoughts, that night at tabernacle I felt this tug in my heart to go down to the alter, but I had always felt this feeling previous nights before and didn't think nothing of it. So after coming to terms with what God had been trying to tell me for so long, I go down there and give my life to Christ for real this time, and I know it's for real because I could say sir pure conviction that when I died that I was going to heaven and that God was real.

Now what about these past for years? I like to think of it as me learning about God, and getting close to Him. Like any other relationship, it had its rocky parts, but I've learned so much in the past four years, that I'm honestly ready for what God has in store for me and our new milestone.
So this is the part in my testimony where I realize that God loves me that much, that He'd chase me down until the time was right, and knowing He's been here the whole time.