hehehe 69.
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cindy's pov
"please shawn just listen to me," i cry.
"cindy i can't i'm sorry, what i saw and what i feel towards you? they're all mixed up. please i just need time," he says disappointed.
"please shawn i love you and i always will." i cry more. i was now crying on the bed, my eyes bloodshot my hands gripping my legs to my chest.
"i'm so sorry if you think that i wanted this to happen," my voice cracks.
"please cinds just give me time," he kisses my forehead and left, closing the door behind him. i cried and cried until i've gotten no energy to do anything. my phone kept buzzing but i ignored it, the news probably getting out already and any friends i've got left checking up on me. how could i? after all these years that i've got feelings towards him, how could i cheat on him? and worse? i cheated on him with my ex. i hate how we become the things that we hate. i wiped my tears going downstairs near the cupboard and bringing out the bottle of vodka and a case of beers that were left during his party. i drank all my feelings away. not minding the hangover i was gunna have tomorrow i drank. more. i put my blanket around me opening a can of beer and drinking the vodka on one hand and the beer on the other.
" drink until the bottle is emptier than you." my subconscious said and so i did. i laid down my bed, with all the alcohol i've brought up empty and the last bottle of beer being in my left hand i lied down fall into a deep slumber.
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this is horrible. um bye.
