Shawn mendes imagines

On my mind

Y/N POV:

I open my eyes. Staring straight at the ceiling. I look beside me to see the most beautiful boy i have ever seen. Shawn.

Me and shawn have been dating for a year! He always says he loves me but the voice in the back of my head keeps on telling me that he doesn't.

I kiss shawns nose making him smile in his dream. I slowly get up and put on my slippers. I walk downstairs and make myself a hot chocolate. I sit on the counter and drink it slowly. I look at the cupboards infront of me and sigh.

He can do so much better than you!
Are you really worth it?
Does he actually love you?
Wouldn't he be doing better if he wasnt with you?
You are just holding him back.

I bite my lip hard so i wont cry.
"Y/N?" Shawn whispers as he looks into the kitchen.
"Why are you up at 3 in the morning?" He mumbles as he rubs his eyes. He is clearly tired.
"Go back to sleep baby, i will be with you soon," i fake smile.

Shawn frowns.
"Whats on your mind?" He asks.
"What?" I say.
"Y/N i know everything about you! And i know when something is on your mind you wake up in the middle of the night, you specifically make a hot chocolate and sit on the kitchen counter," he says as puts his hands on my thighs.

"You're good mendes," i laugh.
"Y/N?" He says.
"I dont know shawn... i know you love me alot but i cant help thinking if I'm good enough for you? You deserve a happy beautiful girlfriend who makes you laugh and feel comfortable... i dont think I'm that," i sigh.

Shawn instantly grabs my face and puts it towards his so both of our foreheads were touching.
"Look at my eyes... can you see the lust in my eyes when ever i talk to you? Or the sparkle? Thats only for you! No one else! I love you Y/N never ever think i dont love you! Okay?" Shawn says kissing my nose.

I nod.
"I love you," I whispered.
"You're everything i have ever wanted... now come on lets get to bed," shawn says as he kisses my lips.
He picks me up bridal style and walks upstairs. He gently lays me down on the bed and lays down next to me.

His arms wrap around my waist as i am facing him.
"Good night princess," he kisses my lips one last time and closes his eyes.

I look at him and smile. Shawn laughs.
"Why are your eyes open?" He laughs.
"Something is on my mind," i say.
Shawn opens his eyes again and caresses my cheek.

"Yes babe?" He says.
"How are you so handsome? Like even when you go to sleep you still look so cute!" I laugh.
"Cute?" He laughs.
"Yes cute!"
"No im hot!"
"Okay fine you look cute AND hot at the same time!" I giggle.

I kiss shawns jaw and nuggle into his neck. His cologne makes me calm.
"Good night honey," i whispered as i slowly drift to sleep. Shawn playing with my hair as he hums a tune.

"Goodnight baby girl,"
"You'll always be on my mind,"

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WGAAFAJ THIS IS SO SO BAD WTF!!!! Haha but advice to my future bf/husband if i go to sleep early and wake up in the middle of the night to make a glass of milk then THATS when you know something is bothering me! Haha
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-jordynn❤️