Bad Boys

4. Life Changing?

I did the same things for the past 3 days now. I make myself a coffee, get ready for bed, wake up, start up the live stream and I try to continue the story, I really do. It's just hard when memories come back and make you feel like shit.

I looked at the laptop once more, and decided to not go to school until next term if it's going to take me ages to actually complete the live stream. Here goes nothing. Live stream, tape 4.

"I am going to get in as much as I can. Here is goes. So, yeah. You guys never believed me and were constantly on her side this whole time. I had no one, and so..."

I tried to remember every detail so people won't question it to me at school. Sneaky bastards they are...

After she told me the truth, i fell to the ground, i placed my face in the palms of my hands, remembering everything. And it all made sense that she liked my boyfriend, and all the pieces fitted perfectly within the puzzle.
She slept with him, broke my best friends up with me, and now this. I could not believe it. Backstabbers.

"I felt suicidal. Unwanted. I just felt like, giving up at this point."

I dropped out and went to do home schooling, I had the most amazing time. Want to know why? Because I never had anyone to bother me about anything. It was great.
All until 5 months later. My father told me that I had to go back, face my demons, and to ignore the haters because he never thought that doing home schooling was good for my education.

"So yeah, pretty shit life so far huh? Well, it just started..."

I left my bag open and went to class. I thought that no one would touch it, everyone hates me, so what's the problem? What could possibly go wrong? Well, I thought wrong. So wrong. I came back from music class, I chose it because I am so ambitious about being a musician. I went back to my bag, and wanted to throw up. I found a condom, with the words "kill yourself" written on the latex. The worse part, it was used.

"My life changed. I was damaged. All until, a new guy, or at least a guy I have just never met before, met me. But that part is not yet in the story..."

I dose off, thinking about him. Kind hearted and such a sweet heart. But he could be the same as everyone else, couldn't he be?
I then look at my watch, and then my alarm clock. 1:04am. Who would be watching me at this time of the night? I then saw the viewers. It was... them...