Hi I'm Kana..

Chapter 4

Kana's P.O.V

It's been about two weeks since I met up with Fynn and we've barely spoke since. We text, but it's always small talk.

" KANA! "

A female voice screeched through my phone.

" What? You know I'm not a morning person Rosa. "

" We h- 12 hours! " The connection was bad, but I assumed she said we'd hit 12 hours on FaceTime.

We had a minor victory celebration. That consisted of virtual high fives and hugs.

" I have to go, FaceTime in school is hard to do and I have Mr Shaykh next! "

" Ok, goodbye spontaneous woman. " I laughed and ended the call.

I shut my phone off and placed it on my bedside. I tried to go back to sleep as America was on school holidays ( unlike England, shame Rosa! ) and I just couldn't seem to do it.

Then, my phone buzzed.

Fynn: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH KISS MEE AHHHHHH

My heart stopped for a good twenty seconds. Fynn likes me? This can't be true. We don't even talk! I mean -

Fynn: Ok sorry

Fynn: That was my friend ugh

Fynn: Max is an idiot.

I felt relieved. I'm not the best with drama, especially on no sleep.

Me: S'ok 😂 I got scared oml

Unknown: 🔜🔜🔜🔜🔜🔜🔜🔜🔜🔜🔜🔜

Me: Is this Max?

Unknown: Maybe 😂

Fynn: Is Max scaring you?

Me: YeH

Max: Yeah it's me save my number plz

Me: Rightyo

Max: ? Rightyo 😂

Me: Shut up 😂

Me, Fynn and this Max continued to talk until I was hungry enough to eat a horse. I made myself some black currant jam on toast ( it's nice don't judge! ) and ate it in my room.

I wonder if Rosa has done her exam yet? Design and technology I think.
Or was it her Physical Education exam? I don't know, she's great at both anyway.

After finishing my toast I put the plate on the floor ( again, don't judge ) and changed for the day. I was wearing black skinny jeans and an army green oversized hoodie. My combed my blue and black hair with my fingers and gave myself the ok.

As I was walking down the stairs I had a sudden urge to look through the photo albums. It just came over me, I can't even describe how, it just did.

As I ran back up the stairs, I shouted, " DAD! I AM GOING IN THE ATTIC TO LOOK FOR SOME PHOTO ALBUMS. "

He shouted a 'Yeah' up to me and I grabbed the screwdriver the pull down the attic door. Once I got up there began to rummage through boxes filled with Christmas ornaments, old toys and much more.

Half an hour had passed and I still couldn't find the photo albums. It turns out that dad gave them to my mum, who lives in a completely different state.

My parents live far apart because my dad wanted to pursue his dream as an artist. However my mum also wanted to pursue her dream as a florist.

It's frustrating but at least they are still close. I couldn't imagine my parents hating each other. I wouldn't cope.

Whilst rummaging through a box of books, my finger ran across something smooth. I picked it up from the box and held it I front of me - a camera.

Does anybody use this? I mean, if they did why would it be in the attic. I turned the thing on the see if there was any files on it. Sure enough, there was one.

It was a 27 second video.

" Ugh. MOM IT DOESN'T WORK.........................AH..................waste of mon... EY OMG I HATE THIS THING MUM I DO NOT WANT THIS. SOMEBODY ELSE CAN HAVE IT. "

I laughed. That sounded like a prepubescent dad.

I mean, he didn't want it right?

And that's when it became mine.

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I sat on the bed with the camera, wondering what I should use it for. Clogging? Family moments? Tutorials?
YouTube videos?

Then I had an idea.

'Uh hello.. camera. You need a name. I'll uh think on that later. Everyday, I'm gonna tell you about my life. Today I'll just.. uh tell you about me.

My name is Kana and I AM A BOY not a girl. Never have been, never will be.

I like pop tarts. 

My bestfriend is Rosa and my best USA friend is Stef. She's on holiday so I can't talk to her right now. I have two friends called Fynn and Max. I met Max through Fynn, today actually. I also met Fynn at a skating ring. He defended me from a transphobic man.

What else? I love my family, Ireland, Autumn, Lil Goat, mum, dad and many more. I used to have a pet rock when I was 7.

I can't dance, I can't sing, cook, I like to write but I'm not good at it.

I like to dye my hair, that's fun. I'm scared I'll kill all my hair off one day though.

Oh yeah, I'm a Boy.

Goodbye, I like music too.

I'll name you one day'

A video diary. I just think it would be cool to watch back on in the future. It'll also be nice to vent too as well.

I heard a knock on my door and it opened slowly. I was my dad, with his arms flooded across his chest.

" You've found it. "

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Sorry it was short, but I'll try and update in the future more often, school is finished now anyway.

Also, comment names down for the camera, I'll be picking and shouting out the winner!