Deep Thoughts

Depression

Depression is like being stuck in a deep black hole. There is no way to crawl out but it wouldn't matter anyway because you don't want to get out.
You want to stay where you are.
It's just easier.
Being numb.
Avoiding and ignoring everyone and everything.
Not getting sleep and not trying to make it look like you did.
You don't have the effort to put your makeup on or dress nice so you go to school wearing what you slept in.
The days go by fast and you don't realize what's happened or what you've been doing the whole time.
Anger takes over and that's how you start to handle things.
Everyone is shut out.
The things that you used to be apart of are not important anymore.
All that's left is you in that dark empty hole.
Alone.

But then something happens.
One night you start to realize what's happening and you immediately put that razor down.
You drown yourself in tears and know what you need to do.
You need help.
You need to fight to get out of the darkness.
You need to fight so you can want to get out of the hole.
To go into the light.
And when you finally do, you feel free.
Free from that hole.
Free from those heavy weights bringing you down.
Finally you know, you're okay.