Cranksepticeye Oneshots

I Can't Do This

A/N: I'm back! Decided that I should just continue since so many people liked it.

So here's a short, cute little fic for them!

Enjoy the story!

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Title: I Can't Do This

Pairings: CrankGameplays x Jacksepticeye/Ethan Nestor x Sean Mcloughlin

Prompt (by @JustACreepyFangirl): Ethan is about to host his own panel by himself but he's super nervous. So before he starts Jack comforts him behind stage.

Warnings: a couple of swear words, anxiety?

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His heart is beating abnormally fast. His stomach feels twisted in a knot. He feels like he is about to pass out.

Ethan knew that he was making a big deal out of this whole 'host your own panel' idea, but he can't help it. This was his first time doing anything like this.

He was standing backstage, staring at the huge crowd of people. He normally would be happy that thousands of people came here just to see him.

A normal little blue boy.

But Ethan was terrified. This just makes things worse. That's all the more people he could mess up in front of, make a fool out of himself.

If he made people look like he was a fool, no one would take him seriously. No one would want to work with him or even be with him. His YouTube career would be over.

"I can't do this."

While Ethan was lost in his thoughts, he felt a hand touch his shoulder. He turned around and became face to face with his green haired boyfriend.

"Are you okay, love? You look pale," Sean said while touching Ethan's face.

Ethan looked at Sean and shook his head.

Sean puzzled expression had turned into worry. "What's the matter?"

Ethan shrugged, not making eye contact with the other boy. "I'm just nervous."

"What are you nervous for? Thousands of people came here to see you, Ethan. They love you," Sean said with a reassuring smile.

"That's the problem. I'm worried that I'm going to mess something up or make a fool out of myself. No one will take me seriously, Sean. No will work with me anymore," Ethan said, breathing starting to get faster and faster.

Sean brought his hand up to Ethan's face and turned it towards him so that he could make eye contact with the younger boy.

"Ethan, love, calm down okay. Just take deep breaths. Do it with me okay?"

Ethan nodded and started taking deep breaths as Sean lead him over to a chair that was nearby.

"Here, drink some of my water," Sean said handing Ethan his water bottle he had left there.

Ethan gratefully took it and immediately drank it.

"Do you feel better?" Sean asked after a moment.

Ethan sighed and said, "Yeah. Thanks."

"Anytime."

"Five minutes till you have to be on stage, Ethan," said one of the panel assistants.

Ethan nodded, stomach suddenly getting twisted again.

"Thank you," said Sean and the guy left.

He then turned towards Ethan and knelt down so he could be level with his worried boyfriend.

"Okay E, you got this. You have practiced for weeks. You know what to do and what to say when the time comes. These people don't care if you mess up, they just want to see you. They don't care if you are perfect or if you're not, they just you to know that they care about you and not your silly flaws."

Ethan nodded.

"I'm the happiness fairy, alright? I've just sprinkled happy dust all over you. Now smile dammit, that shit's expensive," Sean said with mock anger.

Ethan chuckled making Sean smile and pull him onto a hug.

Ethan tucked his head into the crook of the green haired boy's neck and let out a content sigh. He breathed in his boyfriend's scent, which helped him calm down, and said, "I love you, so much."

Sean smiled. "I love you too, Eth."

After a few seconds of them standing, enjoying each other's presence, the panel assistant came back in. He opened his mouth to say something, but soon closed it after seeing the two.

He looked at Sean and held up his index finger signaling Ethan had one minute before the panel started.

Sean nodded slightly and gave the guy a thumbs up. After he left Sean pulled a reluctant Ethan off of him and kissed him.

It was quick, but it still made Ethan relax almost completely.

When he pulled away, he looked into Sean's soft, blue eyes and smiled.

His boyfriend smiled back and took his hand leading him to the stage, stopping in front of the entrance.

Sean turned towards Ethan and said, "Remember to breathe and don't think too much. Just go with the flow."

"Okay," Ethan said while nodding.

He peeked out and looked at the crowd, all waiting for him to come out at any second.

"It's time Ethan!" said the panel assistant.

Ethan took a deep breath and looked over at his boyfriend who smiled and said, "Go get 'em tiger."

Ethan smiled and pecked the other's cheek before walking out onto the stage.

Sean watched fondly, listening to deafening sound of the crowd cheering for the blue haired boy.

"Hellllo everyone!" he heard his boyfriend shout.

Ethan glanced over at Sean, smile seeming to widen when seeing the thumbs up his boyfriend gave him.

"Alright let's get to it!" Ethan yelled, a huge smile on his face.

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A/N: And it's done! I probably messed some things up thought because I don't know how the panels at vidcon or playlist work. Oh well, I was close enough.

Thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed it! Until next time. Bye!