Unforgiving||Dan x reader x Phil(COMPLETED)

Chapter Six: Sad Thoughts

(A/N: Don't play song until told please)

Dead.

She's dead.

Cali is gone.

I'm not sure why I'm sad.

It's not the fact that someone died right before my eyes.

Am I sad?

All I know is that I'm confused.
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"Are you okay, (Y/N)?" Dan asked, as you stared down into your hands at the coffee shop you were at.
"I-I'm not sure." I said. I had never been the best with death. Even as a kid when a distant relative would die. One that I never knew existed. I was just...sad.
"What can we do?" Asked Phil.
What could they do?
"Nothing, really." I said. "Can I head back to my house? You, Dan and Michelle can stay." I asked.
"Of course, hun." Michelle said. "I'll go with you if you'd like." Dan suggested. "Uh-sure." I responded. "Phil can stay with Michelle." Dan suggested. Phil looked kinda sad. After all, Dan said they both liked me. "You don't have to if you don't want..." I said, trying to end the awkwardness.
"Let's go." Dan said, pulling my hand out the door.
(A/N: play song above)

Rain pored to the ground. It rolled down my face.

"C'mon! Have some fun!" Dan yelled twirling in the empty streets.
I didn't want to.
I just wanted to cry.
I mean, Cali was an old friend. She wasn't always an enemy.
"(Y/N)?" Dan asked. "(Y/N!)"
I had gazed off into a whirlpool of thoughts, overpowering my ability to respond.
"Let's get you home..." he said.
He grabbed my hand and we walked down the nearly empty streets of London.
I stayed silent the time. We got to my house, and Dan unlocked the house with the key I had given him for emergencies. He took me into my room, and put me on the bed.
"Sorry." I said.
He looked at me in shock that I actually spoke.
"For what?" He asked.
"Everything." I said, sitting up.
"No, no. It's not your fault." He said, looking down. "Just-...hang in there
"I almost got Michelle killed. And you two..." I said, building up anger, but trying to keep it in. "You were in so much danger. How am I supposed to 'hang in there'!". I let all of my anger out onto the pillow next to me.
I'm not sure why, but Dan also started to cry. We cried onto each others shoulders. Before we knew it we both fell asleep on each others shoulders...