The Secret from Beyond the Grave

The big day

            It has been about one month since I discovered that I had a daughter. During that month not too much had changed. We all were fine and nothing bad had happened to Storybrooke, yet. I didn't see much of my daughter because frankly I knew she didn't want to see me until the day she agreed to hang out with me. I wanted that day to come, but I was also dreading it. I still had not idea how to show her I am mother material for her, but when it comes I am sure I will find the right things to say. She still hasn't come to do the thing she wanted me for, but knowing her I don't think she forgot about it. But what could she possibly need me for, can't she see I am already suffering. Whatever life throws at me I am sure it's going to be very delightful, as I said rolling my eyes. I wanted to call her to ask when we could make the date, but I didn't know if it was too soon, so I called Emma to ask her because she always knew what to do about stuff like this. The phone rang and Emma shortly picked up.
              " Hey Emma it's Regina, I was just wanting your opinion on something." I said.
              " Oh hi Regina, what do you want my opinion on?" she asked.
              " You see I want to call Claire and ask to set a date for our little get together, but I don't know if I should this soon. What do you think I should do?" I wondered.
              " I say go for it. You want a relationship with your daughter, so go and get it. You can't just wait and expect her to do all the work, you got to do some as well. Especially since you are the one who wants the relationship, not her." pointed out Emma.
" You are exactly right Emma. Sometimes I forget how smart you are." I stated.
Once I said that I knew Emma was rolling her eyes through the phone at my sarcastic comment.
" Okay haha Regina, but I am still glad I could help you." said Emma.
I hung up the phone and then went to the forest for the first time to find Claire. I walked for about 5 minutes before Claire had showed up.
" Well well, look who is here so early to see her only daughter." sarcastically commented Claire.
" Hi to you too Claire." I said very snobby.
" Oh of course, where are my manners? Hello dear mother." said Claire.
I could see she had something very special planned for me, but I had no clue on to what it could be. I was about to say something until I was rudely interrupted.
" I know you are her to set a date for our special day, but before we get to that let us set a date for when you will come to a secret location and do a special thing for me, and then I will soon meet up my end of the deal." stated Claire.
" Okay when do you wish for your end of the deal to be set?" I asked.
" We will do my thing in one week from now, but yours we will do tomorrow." stated Claire.
" Okay meet me at Granny's dinner tomorrow at 8:00 am and we will start our day. And one more thing, the day doesn't end until 8:00 pm tomorrow night." I commented.
" Agreed!" said Claire.
Then we shook hands and I pooffed back to my house where I was going to figure out what the hell I was planning to do to show her I can be her mother. There was a part of me that knew I was not mother material, but the other part was saying you have Henry what makes this so hard. That's the question I keep asking myself, why is this so hard for me? Is it because I don't know her or truly love her, yet. Or is it because she is a girl and not a boy, which that doesn't make to much sense, but what am I suppose to do. I think all I am going to do is get to know her and maybe see how we can relate and become this family I know I want. We met back up the next day and started talking.
               " Listen, I know there is nothing I can really do to make you love me or forgive me, but I am trying my best to understand you." I told her.
She stayed there in silence for awhile until she finally got the courage or most likely the realization she promised me a chance.
               " I thought you would be the one person who could understand what it means to want revenge and the feeling of you can't stop until it is complete."
The feeling hit me again and I felt all the guilt over again on what I had done to try to my revenge and what it truly cost me. All I truly wanted to do is make sure I can save her from that fate because no one should go through what I went through. It's not fair and what you think you want is not worth it comparing to the price you are going to have to pay for doing wrong.
               " You want to know something? I spent a lifetime trying to kill Snow White. I believed that if I killed her I would finally feel like I got justice for Daniel, but really it wouldn't have helped one little bit. If you have lost something dear to you then you simply just grieve and learn to let go. It's the only way you will truly find happiest."
Funny her look seemed to be like she was actually paying attention to what I had to say and not just pretending that she cares. She looked confused for a second like what I said made sense to her, but then quickly tried to find a rebuttal.
               " If that were true then why do some people actually get there revenge?"
               " Just because you get your revenge doesn't mean you're happy. If you have seen anybody after they finally get their revenge they're not really happy. Sometimes it's the feelings of the chase that makes them really happy because most people don't realize it, but they wouldn't know what to do if they didn't have their so say enemy in their life. When I found that my Enemies were my family I found my life mean less until I thought I needed someone to destroy, but what I really needed was love. Love completed my life."
                 " But you lost your love. Is it still worth living?"
                 " Of course it is! Robin made me who I am today and I wouldn't change that for anything. Even if the memory is say you should still want to keep it because life is made of moments and you have to live all the moments."
For the next hour we sat in silence while eating our lunch and I could tell that she was actually thinking or even regretting what she wants to do. For heaven sakes I am her mother! I should be able to help her from making the bad choices that I made. Mothers are suppose to protect their children and I know I haven't always been there for her, but I want to be, (to be fair I had no idea she was alive anyways or I would have been chasing to go find her). She finally said something after an hour of silence.
               " But how I am suppose to find love?"
               " Sometimes all you need is to open your eyes a and see your second chance. Also, sometimes true love is not always sexual, it can be just an emotional feeling that you for another person. Claire I hope you find the one thing in your life that will make it worth living for you. Also, remember that revenge is never to answer and there is always a third option."
We said our goodbyes and she pooffed away and after that I really feel like she felt different. We agreed to meet once more tonight at the duck pond and talk some sense into her. Hopefully this will all be enough to show her that I truly do love her and that she needs to stop thinking about revenge, but on the present and what she can enjoy and what makes her life living.   
Later that night I tried to warn her about the kind of road she is going down and she can change all of it if she just let's go.
               " Claire who told you that revenge was the answer?"
               " You did. I was always inspired by you and the horrible things you did to people. So I said to myself, well I guess it's mother like daughter. I am going to use your example on how to deal with your problems to deal with you."
I was completely horrified by this. She thinks that the Evil Queen is inspiring. Doesn't she realize that the Evil Queen lost much and the Evil Queen regrets all the horrible things she has done.
                " Claire can't you see that all the things the Evil Queen did is not who I am today, but she did shape me into the kind of person I wished to be."
" Exactly, she shaped you into the person you wished to be, so once I get my revenge I will be shaped into the person I wish to be. Just like you said I need to find the thing in my life that makes it worth living, so once you're finished off I will find that."
She started to walk away, then I grabbed her hand to stop her.
" Before you go at least answer me this one question. How did you get here?"
" I told you Robin."
" I know, but how did you get up here?"
" Robin traded something for me."
" What?"
" His only chance to come back to you. People who get destroyed by the light bolt are given a second chance at life, but he wanted to give it to me because his unfinished business was me. He moved on to a better place, but they promised me if I fixed my problem I have up here then Robin will get to return to me."
I couldn't believe what she said. Robin could have really come back to me, but because he is Robin I know he would have wanted to give it to someone else.
             " So you think getting your revenge on me will bring Robin back?"
             " Yes I know it will. You're the reason I am dead and Robin died. He was the only one who truly cared about me, I can't just let him die." 
            " I know it hurts, but you have to realize one thing, I care about you and he is now not the only one who loves you."
She looked distressed, but then she shook her head and pooffed away. I was left sitting on the beach just wondering if something change, if she has hope for a new life, but if I can I know she can.