A Bitter Pill To Swallow

1| Behind These Hazel (technically blue) Eyes

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IMPORTANT - I RE-WROTE IT ALL LOL SORRY

Please note before you start, as I said in the A/N but everyone skips those, is there will be MATURE LANGUAGE and strong themes. More info is in the A/N I posted desperately. I don't think I'll be adding a cast because I don't want y'all to limit your imagination but if you like to think of a specific character then totally do so.

Also my country speaks the English side of English not the American side so I will have no "colors" or "apologize" or anything "ize"'s up in here. (wattpad keeps saying I'm wrong like UM NO GOD DAMN)

OH AND POINT OUT MY MISTAKES PLEASE!

Song - Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson

***SLIGHTLY EDITED AND COMPLETELY CHANGED***

~ I v o r y ' s P . O . V ~

           

Ambleton Falls really was the place to be if you wanted to live in some sick kind of soap opera.

My god forsaken life had been an undercurrent for a very long time, forever presenting me with battles that I wasn't well armoured for. I know it happens to all of us, and like most of us I can say my backstory can pack a pretty powerful punch. After battling with this thing called 'life', losing most of the time, I thought I had finally found the one thing to turn it all around and force all the negative air out of my lungs. I thought my life was like Alaska, a long period of winter gloom and darkness in the two horrible seasonal parts in my life, and that now I could grow into the remaining two, where everywhere I turned could be light.

But sadly, I was mistaken.

Turns out it was all in the advertising, and I in fact did not receive what I had bargained for.

And that, ladies and gentlemen, is how I landed in this shit storm today.

Tears flowed down my cheeks, creating an overwhelming waterfall. They viciously fell from my face and became one with the rain before I had the chance to wipe them off with the back of my trembling hands. I heard shouts of protest from the creator of this storm but I shook my head, desperately running for my car. The emotions in my head were swirling. My heart felt like it had been ripped out of my chest and crushed by a boulder. And then stabbed a million times over. He did more than break my heart.

He broke me.

I instantly felt a bit more in comfort at the familiar surroundings of my car, but it didn't stop the whirlwind of feelings circling around my head. A sob broke out from me as my entire body shook. Memories, everywhere in my head, every corner I searched for anything else but that's all my brain would give me. More and more sobs followed until I couldn't muster any more.

I was so fucking stupid. I was stupid to believe I was good enough to change the guy who had the worst fucking reputation in the world when it came to relationships.

Well, naive little girl, it was time to change.

Looking out of my tear-swollen eyes I turned on the ignition and sped away from my problems, destination my safe zone. I couldn't believe a single thing I had seen, and I was desperately trying to concentrate on the road. The rain hit my windscreen like rocks, my windscreen wipers trying to fend off the attacks. The hollowness inside felt like it was about to open up and swallow me whole.