Well last night i was in a depressing pool of the love i lost.
Im deep in my feelings im lost. You know how my dumbass said. "i wont fall in love" we im deadass fr now
How can i numb the pain? Its probably something temporary. Right?.
Questions were flooding my head at 5:30 am. School. Well since my alarm will ring at 6 might as well get a 30 minute head start. I can probably have enough time to get lunch like at starbucks. I know i sound basic but their bread there is good. Sorry not sorry.
I get out of bed and go to my bathroom. I grab my toothbrush and toothpaste and brush my teeth.
Why cant i have him the way i want him?
I need to get him off my mind. How? It hurts the most when im awake.
Dreams of his smile pop up in my head. Im head over heels for a fuckboy. Great.
After i finish cleaning my mouth. I wash my face. I dry it then turn off the lights and walk out.
I walk to my closet and walk in to the back. I should atleast look cute. I need to put a mask on of happiness. Even though im a sad depressing piece of shit who cant get over some dumb guy.
I decided with this outfit.
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But no sunglasses*
Im extra. What can I say?
I straighten my hair then I go downstairs and check the time. I have a 45 minutes left. New record!
I go into my bentley and drive to starbucks.
10minutes_____
I have 35 minutes left. I park infront of starbucks and get out.
I walk in to see madison eating on a table. I mentally roll my eyes. She doesnt see me. I go to the line and wait until the grandma infront of me finishes.
"next." The cashier says. "hi um can I have a Double chocalate chip." I ask. "sure is that all?" She asks. "oh and 1 strawberry pop." I reply. (those are literally the things i only get irl) "ok here is the pop and the drink will be ready in 5 minutes." They say. I walk to a chair and sit down. Some 14 yr old boy winks at me. I put a sour face on. I go on my phone to distract myself from that thing.
Someone sits next to me. I look up and its the 14yr old. "whats a sexy babe like u doing here all alone?" He says with a ugly smirk. "ur like 6." I say walking to get my drink. I grab it and walk out being stopped by madison.
"funny how u thought it was love." She says walking out. I just stand there. Im on the verge of tears. But ur stronger than that kylie. I walk to my car and just sit there. I have like 30 minutes left till school starts.
I grab my phone and call stas.
The phone didnt even ring. "hey girl." Stas says. "hey do u need a ride?" I ask. "u have emotions to spill?" She asks. "yea. Be there in 5." I say. "kk." Is all she says before hanging up.
