Behind the smile

Understanding life

I wish there was a way to not care what people think

I wish there was a way to not rely on smoke or drink

But the way the world is,it's honestly just brutal

Any attempt to reconcile past wrongs is so futile

So why turn your life around,when the world spins

You end up facing the same direction,chasing all the same sins

What is the purpose in bettering yourself

When others will never be happy, and say you need help

The sad part is,you agree with them too

Raised to believe you're no better than a fool

A tool,just a puppet to society,they say get good grades

But it doesn't really matter if you graduate with C's or A's

And college,they say you need it

But I know plenty more people who didn't go that succeeded

And everyone who "loves" me wants to cram it down my throat

That's like throwing a newborn into rough waters and expecting him to float

There isn't anyway I could ever leave what I've come to know as home

But every time I get used to one place,my family has to roam

Spent 10 years in Georgia just to move to Alabama

Lived there 6, all of during which I missed Atlanta

Got used to it there and he brought home the news

Moving again but we weren't sure where to

They flip my life around on me and expect me to have it all figured out

But I guarantee they can't answer what their own life is all about

They say I'm a waste if I get a high test score and don't use it

They say its a gift from God and I abuse it

But being honest it feels more like a curse

It'll be my downfall,being smart,cuz over thinking hurts

Honestly I wish I was different,and they tell me not to think that way

Tell me to find peace with myself,but growing up that ain't what they would say

They were hard on me,so I have to be harder

I had dreams,they went far,but I was gonna go farther

I was on the right track til one class kicked my ass

Now they're telling me I could've worked harder just to pass

But I had a lot on my plate

I was proud I just escaped

But once again it wasn't enough for them,I never will be

And my girlfriend tells me when I'm gone she'll miss me?

Yeah,I guess she would,but she'd be the only one

I know my parents wouldn't, they make sure I know I'm the most disappointing son