hopeless

chapter 3

 I woke and hung the necklace painful memories dance around me but I have to be strong. Today is Sunday he will come and have dinner with me tonight. He, he suddenly I realize that is all I know him by, his angry face does not have a name. I need to find it out so I know who he is. I decide to ask him at dinner.

I go about my day braiding my hair, rearranging my bed, And dusting the shed with my hands. after I will find something else to do because sitting there is not an option. Because I will start to think about my family and I can't do that, it is a matter of life and death. I start to sweat as my time slowly tick away. I start to pace but my bare feet start to ache and I have sit down. I find it hard to think and I start to shake.

I am terrified I will do something wrong and it feel's so wrong and stupid I don't need his approval he is not anyone to tell me what to do. He ripped me from my life, my family, my future, and even my past poisoned by him. Rage fills me but I have to calm down so I start to wonder. Were is he even though I have no watch I know his comings and goings like the back of my hand.

I get up and walk to the door when I get there I hear him it sounds like he is struggling to get here. Theres screaming and yelling I try to plug my ear to muffle the sound of pain and then the door swings open knocking my into the melt wall. Pain shoots though my back I fall to the floor expecting him to scream at me about how clumsy I am but all I hear is the door close and someone let out a painful sob. The weirdness of it all stuns me, the sound of someone else even if it is a sob.

But soon I get up trying to sort it all out in all the time I have been here he has done nothing like this and it scares me. I walk numbly over to the girl and embrace her she clings to me like I am the only thing left in the world. Suddenly I feel responsible for this girl.

“how old are you” I ask

“t-t-thirteen” she answer her chest quavering a little.

She so young “whats your name” I ask. “h-hope” she shaking and tears are run down my cheeks hope I think I have hope.