Poems for Mangled Hearts

I Wish I Could Cry

I have all this pain trapped inside of me,

Crushing my fragile heart,

 Yet no teardrops fall from my eyes,

But I wish I could cry.

You yell at me for crying,

And I can't help that,

My emotions grow too strong.

My hate for you makes me cry in rage,

So I grab a blade.

My pain is too strong,

You don't understand.

No one cares for me,

But I thought you did.

You kept me alive for only so long,

Till you broke my heart,

I wish I could cry! 

But I can't,

I have to be strong,

But I'm weak.

Far too weak for such pain,

Too weak to hold on much longer,

But I can't go on inflicting pain on myself!

I have to stop someday,

And try to think about the people I'm hurting.

But I can't,

I'll cry,

And I wish I could,

But I'm afraid I'll get beaten.

I need to cry! 

It's no longer a wish,

It's one of my needs!

It's a want, 

A wish that need will come true.

One day, I will cry with joy.

I will cry because I will get away,

Away from this world,

But for now,

I only wish I could cry.