{Sadness}

Sad Topic

So it's been a while I posted on Wattpad, and I guess during that period I was Inactive a whole lot has changed.

For example I have transferred into a different school, meet people who accepted, meet my True Best-friend, and won an award on my school. I won Best in Subject in Social Studies and I honestly couldn't be prouder.  Everything was going alright I guess..

In summer break I decided to log in and greet my Internet friends whom I haven't talked to in a while. I signed in and the first thing I saw was "100+" notifications. My mood really got more happier . I was messages from my friends. But they were old.  I was like " okay, time to be active again!"

So it have been a week or so and I'm still active. I was "active" on Wattpad. But I didn't reply much and comment as often, it made me realize that I had changed, but I didn't like my new self.

The comment on my Chapters was either "grammar" replies or old, nice, some are new, comment that made my day.  I Had a best friend in Wattpad, I guess we got distant from each other . To be honest I actually miss that person. Ya know, the one who knew my secrets. Yeah I miss that person . It might seem stupid but I actually hate the book I wrote, and I'm sadly am currently writing. Well, "no one is forcing you" you might think. I know that. I just don't want anyone to be disappointed. And I know you might think " it's a long time since you actually have updated it, who are you gonna disappoint?" Actually, no one.  But I made a promise to myself to update often. Because "Update = happy viewer, am I right?" Yea.

I guess what actually is bothering me is that I miss the person, and I feel like I did something wrong, probably why that person is avoiding me. Life, I guess . 

Someone told me that I was like a bully. That I looked sad and mean or something along those lines. I don't want to be a bully tho . I'm not actually sad, I just want to write what I feel on this app, because I have no one that I can talk to right now, I know it's not a big deal it's just an app, I know! I write this to get things off my mind. So therefor I don't want anyone here to think that I want your pity. No I don't. It's not a big deal, and I never said it was.

Again  I'm writing this so that I can spill my thoughts on this chapter. So I do not want YOU TO THInK tHAt IM Sad, Or Want Pity.