Picture Perfect

chapter 5

"Well my mom past away too just last year June 2nd and her death day is coming up, maybe we can do something together, I usually stay to myself when it comes to my mom like her birthday was March 10 that's why no one heard from me" Shawn instantly got sad talking about his mom
"I understand Shawn my mom past on January 8 two years ago, she died from taking Xanax and drinking alcohol, she was an bit of an alcoholic, so I was staying with my grandmother until she went to the nursing home and that's when I came down here and of course" I told them while agreeing with Shawn
He nodded and we walked out of the door. "Damn girl I thought I lost you" Jayden laughed while we walked out. "Well here I am, and I never told my dad what happened between us" I laughed "Glad you didn't I Dont even think he would've allowed me in the room"
"Your right" I laughed
"I love you girl"
"Mhm"
"Girl stop playing with me"
"Boy, I love you too" we finished up talking and kissed each other goodbye niya was scared to kiss Shawn while my dad was around and Latrice stayed the night at my house and I guess the all guys stayed at Shawn's for the night. My dad dropped us off at the house and went to go get his fiancé Sarah up from the airport. "Where gonna talk when I get back about what happened" He pulled off before I could say anything back. We got in the house and LaLa instantly started going to the kitchen and making fun of Niya and Shawn's kiss "Girl you must really didn't want to kiss him" she laughed
"No girl shut up my dad was around"
"Well Myah didn't care"
"Um Dont bring me into it and plus Jayden has been over here before and we kissed"
"Right, So shut up LaLa" Niya laughed
"Anyways Myah when you go give it up?" Latrice asked me
"Girl is that all you think about sex?"
"No I think about you" she laughed
"Fuck of bitch" I laughed
"Myah watch your mouth you lucky its me and not you dad " Sarah walked in laughing
"Hey I missed you" I ran to her laughing
"I miss you too I got something for you" My dad walked in behind her with a cage and dog food
"Ah you got her" she promised me a dog when she came back from LA she was a animal rescuer
" I did just like I promised a yorkie brown and black just like you asked" she replied "I didn't name her"
"Praise her name "
"If you like it I love it" she replied laughing
"Come here little girl we need to talk" my dad demanded me to come sit next to him "what happened, and what did I tell you about fighting"
"But listen when we where skating and having a good time Tre Niya's ex boyfriend came up to us and started drama so we decided to leave because Niya felt uncomfortable but once we walked outside he followed us out and then he told them girls to try and fight Niya and I thought she was pregnant at the time so I told her to get in the car and lock the doors and the girl hit me the guys tried to break it up resulting to us being in the hospital" I explained to him
"Girl you almost lost yo damn life over,"
"My sister yes I did but other people also could have!" I interrupted him "Lala Marcus and Jayden could have got hurt Shawn also could have died, dad I did this for Niya not to prove a point"
"Zmyah, I'm sorry okay I guess I over reacted"
"You think Chris" Sarah jumped in "I Dont see why you even bother to yell at her" I felt an argument coming but it didn't
"Your right Sarah, you guys can go to bed now"
"Goodnight dad" we all answered I grabbed Praise and went upstairs
"So when are you going to" Lala continued to bother me about this question
"Bitch leave me alone damn no time soon" I told her
"Lien ass I think she already did" Niya said
"Actually I never did," I laughed "not even with Lance"
"Bitch really y'all was together for like......"
"Two years exact" I finished
"Wow, damn girl you not ever giving it up" Niya said
"Nope never" I continued while petting Praise
My computer started to go off.
"Why, are y'all calling "
"Cause we miss y'all" Marcus answered sounding drunk
"You drunk as hell Dont call us" Lala said she was about to hang up
"Wait I wanna talk to my baby" Jayden told her
"Jayden go to bed, "
"But baby I want you, right now I'm gonna come over"
"No the hell your not Jayden your drunk you can't drive "
"But bab-"
"But baby shit nigga goodnight "
"I love you, I love y'all "
"We love y'all to goodnight" and before he could say anything back I hung up
"Wow Myah did you just hang up" Niya laughed
"Girl hell yes Jayden is drunk off his a ass and he know I don't like that shit " I said
"Bitch guess what I got" Lala said
"Weed now roll it up"
"So you can smoke but he can't drink"
"I never said he couldn't I said I didn't like when he called me drunk"  I laughed
"Does dad care" she asked
"No he feel like I'm old enough to make my own choices " I laughed
"Awe okay roll that shit up" she laughed
So we smoked and started letting things out.
"Bruh I really fucking hate Tre ass he a dumb bitch" Niya started to talk
"I'll run his ass over bitch you want me too" I started to laugh "bitch let's go get some McDonald's " I grabbed my keys and knocked on my dads door and told him where we was going. We got hella food then I told them we was going to Shawn's house. We knocked and Then Shawn answered "Y'all hungry" I asked and walked in his parents wasn't home this week I know because he asked me to take him to work and drop him off." Baby" Shawn ran to Niya and hugged her
"Marcus bring yo fine ass here" Lala yelled making me laugh he ran down the stairs almost falling down the last two
"Let me change yo life in this bathroom" he told her
"Y'all bet not break shit" Shawn yelled. I went upstairs to Shawn's room and seen Jayden on the phone
"Bitch I wanna see my son" he was yelling in the phone
"Jayden stop disrespecting her , hang up now" I walked in the room
"Man okay" he hung up and came and picked me up and kissed me
"Okay stop Jayden" I told him
"Let me eat I'm hungry" he laughed
"Nigga its food downstairs"
"I wasn't talked bout that " he threw me on the bed and unzipped my pants
"Jayden no this is Shawn's room" I pushed his head away
"Let's go to the car then" and we got up going down stairs. Niya and Shawn was making out on the couch she kept pushing his hand away making me laugh. We got to his car and got in the back seat.
"Remember when I told you to bring me a slushy and we sat in your car for like 3 hours "
"Yeah you was mean as hell then, still is but all you need is this"
"Nope nigga " I laughed " you wan-" he cut me off by kissing me
"Let me eat I'm hungry" he stop to ask me
"Gone ahead" I let him take control that's the most we ever did nothing more. " Fuck Jayden, damn" he was doing it right I held it in before I came on his tounge "wait my phone ringing" I pushed him it was Lala
"Bitch where you at, we looking for y'all " she laughed " and your dad called me and said you didn't answer your phone "
"Fuck" I moaned cause he never stopped " um damn he probably looking for us what you tell him"
"Um bitch really never mind, I told him we was riding around and you driving that's why you didn't answer "
"Good okay here I come"
"You talking to me" she laughed
"Duh hoe shut the fuck up" I laughed after that he stopped and got out the car and walked back to the house
Yall looking happy" Niya laughed
"Fuck you bitch y'all ready" I flicked her off
"Lala and Marcus went back in the bathroom" Shawn said
I grabbed some chicken nuggets and sat down "damn bae you hungry" Jayden laughed
"Hell yeah I just fed you " I laughed making him mad
"Never drinking after you again" Shawn laughed
"Look at this shit" Jayden was instantly pissed off
Asia-"You will never see yo son again Dont ever call me phone disrespecting me like that again and tell that bitch to mind her own business nobody asked her ass shit, and by the way in putting yo ass on child support" -1:28a.m "Jayden see this is what happened every time this time it just went to far this time, you need to chill out seriously" I yelled at him
"Man I Dont give a fuck I want to see my son" he yelled back
"Seeing that I'm not gonna get through to you I'm gonna leave," I turned to Niya" let's go tell Lala we in the car love you Jay goodnight"
"You ain't going no where" he grabbed my arm
"Let her go bro you doing to much" Shawn jumped in
"Shut the fuck up man you Dont know shit"
"I think you forgot who I was," I chuckled "let my arm go now Adian"
"What ever man yo ass Dont love me and truth be told I Dont love you neither why you think I cheated"
"Okay Jayden I'm leaving"
"Wait I'm sorry, come here"
"Goodbye Jayden" I started walking to the door and I took off the ring he gave me and gave it to him. Going to the car I started to cry how can a night that was going so good end up this bad I thought to myself Niya got in the car and hugged me and tried to give me the ring back I took it but I didn't bother to put it back on until we got in the house.
"What happened" Lala asked me "actually Niya what happened"
"They got into an argument"
"Figures Jaydens drunk off his ass and he did or said some dumb shit"
"Yeah just this time he told me he cheated on me cause he Dont love me"
"He didn't mean it"
"Yes he did everyone true colors come out when their drunk, I don't care I Dont want to talk about it" I demanded
"Sorry " Lala said "Niya you wanna go to the kitchen" Niya shook her head and got up
"Alexus you need to start being more responsible I want you in this house by , 2 the latest" my dad walked in the rooms turning on my light
"Okay I'm sorry" I sat up wiping my eyes
"What's wrong princess" he came and sat on my bed
"Jayden told me he didn't love me " I started to cry again " I really love him"
"If he didn't love you he wouldn't have gave you that beautiful ring on your finger baby girl "
Looking at the ring then back at my dad " he cheated on me "
"He did what, I'll beat his - "
"Dont dad your a teacher and this is why I didn't want to tell you"
"I'm sorry........ Shawn's calling " he handed me my phone and walked out
"Hello?"
"Why aren't you answering any of my calls"
"Bye Jayden"
"I'm sorry-"
"What are you sorry for Jayden tell me, you Dont even know goodbye" I hung up
KJ- hey stranger- 2:42
Me- hey- 2:43
KJ- Can I pull up? 2:44 Actually come outside2:45
Me: give me five 2:46
KJ- alright lul baby 2:46
"Hey dad I'm going for a walk" I told him while he was grading papers Niya and Lala was helping. "I'm coming" Lala got up
"No I just need some time alone" I stopped her
"Alright ,you took your ring back off" she questioned me
"Yeah I'll be back" I walked out the door and got in the car
"Hey"
"Hey beautiful"
"KJ stop please"
"My bad baby"  I straight faced him "my bad, what's wrong"
"Nothing I'm fine"
"You back with him aren't you, damn it man I knew it was a reason why you didn't text me for the past two weeks"
"KJ look I'm sorry"
"Its aight I just-, maybe I should leave"
I felt so bad I knew KJ liked me a lot but my heart was with Jayden "Myah" he snapped me out of day dreaming "did you hear me I said I'm about to leave"
"You Dont have too KJ I'm sorry" I grabbed his face making him look at me
"Dont do that" he pushed my hand away
"Why"
"Cause I wanna kiss you but....."
"KJ look-" before I could finish he kissed me then he pulled back without instinct I kissed him back. 'What are you doing' I thought to myself 'this isn't right you need to stop before it goes too far', also thought 'Jayden hurt you get him back revenge' "pull around the corner" I told him
"Alright" he started the car and did as I told him. When we got around the corner we got in the backseat. At first we where just kissing then one thing lead to another and I lost my virginity that night. Lucky he had a condom like he just knew what was going to happen I was very emotional and hurt at the time, but I honestly don't regret anything that happened. After that we sat in the car for a while and then I left going back in the house before anyone noticed.
My Baby- look I'm sorry for the things I said baby I really do love you and I didn't cheat because I Dont love you besides my son I only care about you and I just Dont want you to leave me, baby please put the ring back on IM SORRY- 2:55 a.m
Me- Jayden I love you but I honestly think we just need a break, a long one I'm not ready to give up on us so there for I'm gonna stay with you I love you Jayden but you hurt me Jayden-3:30 a.m
KJ- hope your okay, I miss you already girl you got a spell in me or some shii 😂😍3:31a.m
Me- lol KJ I'm fine thanks for checking 😏 goodnight 3:32 a.m
KJ- goodnight baby 3:32a.m
My baby- if that's what you need to make you happy  not gonna get it we not taking no breaks baby sorry I'm done drinking that shii gets me in trouble with you and I Dont like it at all but we not taking no breaks 3:35 a.m
Me- okay Jayden goodnight 3:35a.m
Jayden- I love you goodnight 3:36a.m
When I woke up Niya and Lala was in my room. "Bitch that was a long as walk you took last night " Lala laughed I also laughed and seen that it was 1 in the afternoon "shut up I just woke up Lala leave me alone"
KJ- you up yet, let's go out for lunch 12:30p.m.
     Did I do something wrong? 12:45 p.m
Me- yeah we can go out for lunch, and you didn't do anything I was still sleep 1:10p.m
Jayden- Look I Dont even know how she got your number I'm sorry.12:41p.m
Baby please 12:43p.m
Me - Jayden I really Dont care for the bullshit today okay. 1:15pm
KJ- Alright be there at 3. 1:15p.m
Jayden- can we do dinner at 5 tonight still ? 1:20p.m
Me-  yes Jayden where still on for tonight1:30p.m
Jayden- I would love to see that ring back on your finger 1:31p.m
Me- okay I will 1:45 p.m
" Hey guys Jaydens gonna be here at five but I'll be back at like 4:30 okay" I yelled from the bathroom
"Where you going ?" Niya asked me "Out" I told her not wanting them in my business "With KJ, that's who you was out with last night bitch talking bout you went on a walk" Lala said as she went through my phone " Bitch what the hell Latrice damn give me some space" she looked at me shocked "sorry damn" she apologized "I'm sorry y'all Jayden just stresses me out and I don't know what to think right now" I explained to them " we know "Niya and Lala said at the same time.
KJ-  I'm outside 2:55p.m
" I'll be back guys Bye daddy bye Sarah" I ran put the door. "You always early" I laughed as I got in the car " someone told me better early than late " he tried to kiss me but I only let him kiss my cheek. "Question" he said while making a right turn
" I think I got an answer "
"How do you feel about last night"
"KJ honestly you where my first and last night I was very emotional but last night you made me feel wanted you have always made me feel that way " we pulled up to Sonic
"Damn really I thought you and Jayden-"
"No we didn't, never have thought about it yes but never did"
" Well I really like you ma, and I really wish I would have took my chances when you first got here, what's that?" He said while looking at my finger
"Um its a promise ring that Jayden gave to me yesterday after this girl cut me" I looked down
"You mean to tell me a girl cut you but not only that he gave you a promise ring?"
"Yes KJ I'm fine and sorry"
"Where was it last night ?"
"I took it off "
"I think we should go"
"KJ please stop being like that"
"Like what Zmyah your basically pre-engaged " he yelled he never called me by my name so I knew he was very upset.
"Yeah maybe we should leave "
"I'm sorry"
"Its fine just....takes me home please" at that time I felt so many different emotions I started to silent cry.
"Baby I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled at you, its just I think I'm in love with you Zmyah, and you was my first and I wouldn't have it anyway else" I was shocked to here I was his first KJ was on the Football and Basketball team so girls was always throwing there self at him.
"KJ, its fine you didn't know how to take it and its my fault I shouldn't have wore the ring out with you"
"You ready to go back yet, and stop crying, baby I got you"
"No actually I'm not hungry could you like pull over some where and we just sit and talk"
"Whatever you want"
"I want my dog" I laughed and wiped my eyes
"Really you want me to go get her"
"Yes please, thank you"
"Anything for a queen" we stopped at the house and got praise then we was back on our way." You know something" kj asked me.
"What is it" I smilied playing with praise.
"First of all you fucking Gorgeous, your fuckiung perfect and I wish you'll leave him tf alone you Dont deserve none of that shit he does to you" he explained
"Kj I'll gives you a chance, but promise you won't hurt me please I'm tuired o being hurt I've been hurt all my life so please Dont" I started to cry telling him I've been hurt all my life
"I promise okay, I swear I won't hurt you, why you crying " he was confused
"Nothing okay, I'm okay" I started to text Jayden
Me- Jayden we need a break we can't keep doing this, it really hurts and we need to think about what were getting ourselves into okay. I'm sorry I won't be at dinner tonight I'm so sorry.-3:30 pm
"Wanna go to my house, and we go talk about what you was just crying for, and you bet not like to me " he gave me a serious look
"Yes that's fine" I took the ring off and put it in my purse and at the same time I got a text from Jayden
Jayden- Zmyah I'm sorry, I swear I'll never do it again but if you feel like that's what's best then I'm okay with it even if that means you with KJ now.-3:43 pm I read the message with confusion and seeing that he was in the car right next to us, shocked I mouthed "I'm sorry" but the light turned green and he pulled off. "You good" Kj asked me keeping his eyes glued to the road "yeah, I'm fine" he stopped the car and we got out I grabbed praise
"Ma, pops y'all here" he yelled in the house
"Kitchen son" his dad spoke up I went to the bathroom and wiped my face and fixed my makeup
"Mom, Dad this is Zmyah, Zmyah this is my mom Diana and my dad Kalvin" he introduced us
"Hey" I said softly
"How are you honey" his mother said hugging me
"Nice to meet you" His father got up and shook my hand
"You okay hun" his mom asked rubbing my arm
"Yes I'm fine" I lied and smiles
"I know your lien baby girl its okay you Dont have to talk about it to me" she smirked
"Mom stop reading people, I doing want you scare my first girlfriend off" he grabbed my arm "let's go" his mom was very spiritual
"Diana apologized, and leave the girl" he looked at her out the corner of his eye
"Sorry hun" she sincerely apologized
"Your fine nice to met you both" I said while Kj dragged me out the kitchen to his room
"I'm sorry about that" he apologized again for his moms action
"Kj its fine" I laughed " she just was making sure I was okay, that's how my grandma was" I explained to him
"Now explained to me what you meant by you've beennhurt all your life and Dont lie because I'll go ask my mom" he laughed
"Threatening me with you mom huh" I laughed and got ready to talk " when u was younger I was raped, I tolkd my mom and she didn't believed me after she got into the accident she was addicted to her meds and started to be abusive so I moved with my grandma but one day she found me coming from school and her boyfriend beat me up pretty bad"  my eyes started to fill with tears and he hugged me and I started to ball crying
"Calm down, I swear I won't hurt you okay" he lifted my head up "okay? I promise" he kissed my forehead.
"Okay" I kissed him back" I have a headache "
"Come on let's lay down crybaby" he laughed " What you wanna watch"
"Spongebob" I laughed
"Really, Spongebob" he questioned
"Yes I'm dead ass I wanna watch Spongebob babe" I was still laughing
"Okay baby" he smiled and kissed my lips