Stranger's desire

Chapter 5: The promise of a happy ending

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"Oof" I groaned, bumping straight into a hard wall

"Oh sorry there Elle, didn't see ya" I heard a familiar chuckle from above me, letting me know it was a person not a wall.

Cringing, I slowly creaked my eyes open to have them lock with the familiar warm green of Matty's. Sending a slight smile to my face, don't get me wrong he may be annoyingly obsessed with me but he was as sweet as they get.

"Hey Matty- ooohh" my greeting was cut off as he pulled me up to my feet, clearly not recognising how his immense strength could seriously overpower my fragile body.

"Hey Elle" he chuckled nervously.

"Hey Matty" I repeated, a cheeky grin playing on my lips as I watched his squirming ball of nerves.

"So Elle, I was - ah thinking maybe- I mean you don't have to- but there's this party- I mean you might not like it but-" it was my turn to cut him off.

"Matty I can't"

"Wha- why" his pleading look sent me into thinking why I wasn't agreeing, only for me to realise in my whole hectic morning after I'd forgotten to contemplate the severity of exactly what happened yesterday.

"Uh Elle" Matty's kind voice brought me out of my depressing thoughts, not wanting to mull over my disastrous life I quickly changed my mind.

"Actually I'd love to go, pick me up at six okay?" I smiled, breaking his face into a large grin that had my heart warming. Trying to end e already awkward conversation I waved a little, and started to walk to class, that's if it wasn't already over seeing how late I was.

"Wait Elle!" Matty called right before I'd rounded the corner, turning around I tilted my head slightly, wondering what else he had to say.

"Umm.. the party doesn't start until seven"

"Oh" the blood seemed to drain from my face in embarrassment, what's happening to me?

"Pick me up at seven thirty?" I questioned, hoping to get out of this hallway as fast as possible.

"Yea, seven thirty" he smiled, and that was all the confirmation I needed before speeding out of the hall.

* * *

"I don't accept late students, you'll have to catch up from somebody else's notes"

"Professor please I had a rough morning it won't happen again"

"Yes, and me denying you this lesson will make sure of that"

"Please sir it's not that late-"

"The lesson is halfway through! Now if you don't have enough respect for your fellow peers to not disrupt their lesson- that they showed up on time for may I add! Maybe you shouldn't even be at this university!"  He bellowed out and I could feel the entire classes eyes strained onto my red face.

"My apologies professor, I'll be on time next lesson" I lowered my head, trying not to anger him further.

"I sincerely hope so miss Greene." And he slammed the door in my face, leaving me 'sincerely' depressed, stressed and wanting to see my mum.

* * *

Parking my car on the side of the road I stepped out, beginning the long walk towards her grave, rain already starting to stain my clothing but I couldn't bring myself to care as the stone got closer and closer.

I felt the salty tears streaming down my rain soaked face already, the mere thought of her had my heart in a faze, I couldn't bear the thought of not seeing her again and yet I had to bear that reality everyday. I was still unsure how I kept on living in such a cruel world.

My heart wrenched as I let out another uncontrollable sob, as I finally reached the grave my knees fell into the sticky mud, not caring for dirt seeping into my clothing I let myself fall apart. The rain mixing with the heavy flow of tears pouring down my face and it's loudness drowning out the sounds of my painful cries.

My hand reached out to caress the tombstone in front of me, it's hard surface bring more tears to my eyes. Making me yearn for her touch, the way she'd comfort me, how she'd hold my face in her hands and wipe the tears away, promising me everything was going to be okay. But it wasn't okay, and her not being here to tell me it would be made it hurt even more.

"Mom" I choked out, my voice merely a whisper being muffled by the heavy rain. I was overwhelmed with the feeling of loneliness, slight anger seeping in. She left me with nothing but empty promises and false hope, leaving me abandoned and alone, Her promise of a life full of happiness, colour and love waiting for me was the only thing keeping me alive and sane for all these years and now that it had crumbled to pieces just like my heart.

"Mom you said it'd be okay, you said we'd be okay" I tried to regulate my breathing and stop the heavy intakes of breath sounding between my cries.

"But you're gone mom, and I'm still here. You told me it was worth waiting for, worth living for and it's gone, love is a joke and I can't keep living through this cruel prank of a life. You were all that mattered and you broke the only promise you ever made to me, the promise of a happy ending."