Forever mine

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

I felt a little guilty about what had happened during lunch. Jared was so nice to me and I ended up throwing a hissy fit at him. I didn’t do it intentionally but that didn’t seem to matter to my mind, I still felt guilty.  As much as I didn’t want to give a shit, I would still hate it if he decided to change his attitude with me or if he completely stopped talking to me. The thoughts confused me even more. I thought I WANTED him to stop chasing me and wanted him to give up on me so that I could focus on my damned studies. I groaned loudly in frustration. This is the fucking hardest thing I have had to deal with in years. That also includes being in freaking labor and giving birth!

I don’t know why but the thought of never talking to Jared, never seeing his God forsaken damned smirk pointed at me made my heart painfully sink in my chest.

 After a few minutes of being lost in my own world, I took a deep breath and tried to focus in my AP English class. We were doing “A Man of All Seasons” and it was the most boring play I had ever done. I had already read the play before so I didn’t need to focus much but I didn’t want the teacher to get mad at me.

I shared this class with Jared’s friend Devon. Since you never saw them apart, I assumed Devon was Jared’s best friend, and currently he was sitting next to me, hitting on the girl in front of him.

“Soo… Lexi isn’t it?” He questioned, turning his attention to me after arranging to meet up with the girl after school. I rolled my eyes internally and was very tempted to just ignore him. I didn’t know how the teacher didn’t notice his 10 minutes conversation with the girl sitting in the front, but he hadn’t said a word or even looked in their direction. I swear the man was deaf…. and maybe a little blind as well. Come to think of it, I have been noticing since yesterday that almost every teacher turned a blind eye to everything Jared and Devon did. It almost seemed like they were the one with the authority rather than the teachers themselves. The thought made me frown deeply as I imagined the man whore sitting next to me having ANY authority at all, that thought alone made me shudder. God forbid I see that day.

I snapped out of my observing thoughts and gave him a one word answer in a low voice, indicating that I wasn’t in a chatting mood.

“Soooo,” He started again, completely ignoring my uninterested tone.

“What’s up with you and Jared? He seemed as if someone stole his favorite porn CD after lunch. Please tell me you brutally rejected him again. Its time someone made a little dent in that gigantic ego of his. It’s damn hilarious to watch how whipped he already is over you.” He said with a huge grin on his face and an expectant look. He was way to hyper and happy for my liking. I was in a blow-the-earth-with-thunder-storm-and-lightening kind of mood.

Even though I wasn’t exactly feeling like Little Miss Sunshine, the thought of Jared being whipped over me made my stomach do flip-flops. Although I knew what Devon said wasn’t true at all, it still made me feel quite smug and cocky. I turned my face towards Devon and gave him a wink and a small smirk instead of answering, which had him howling with laughter. I chuckled to myself a little at his reaction. I still felt bad about how I had treated Jared but I figured he will get over it soon enough and now he will truly leave me alone. Instead of being comforting like it was supposed to be, that thought wiped the smirk off of my face and left a strange hollow sensation in my chest. And yet again I was left confused.

“Mr. Denver would you like to share with us what exactly did you find so amusing in this play that had you laughing so loudly?” Mr. Crowley, the English teacher asked Devon, looking very annoyed. Finally!

“Oh nothing funny in the book Edward. Although my sexy new friend here has quite the sense of humor.” He replied cheekily with a smirk, leaving me with my mouth hanging wide open and my brain completely astounded. He also had the nerve to put his arm around my shoulder bringing me closer to him so that our shoulders bumped together.