"Just calm down", they say in the midst of the crowd.
Little do they know, I'm trying so hard.
My breathing is shallow and my heart beat is fast.
"How much longer will this event last?"
They say it's okay but that's not how I feel.
Everything feels so surreal.
This is my life every day.
Sometimes I don't think I'll be okay.
But this isn't as bad as the nights that follow.
Thats when I feel nothing. My body seems hollow.
The thoughts just keep coming. They won't stay away.
Why does it have to be like this everyday.
I want to be normal but I feel too strange.
Please tell me what to change.
Could it be my attitude, personality, or looks?
Just make me ordinary, well according to your books.
Lol this actually really sucks but i feel like this so much it hurts. But if anybody is going through this i just want you to know that youre not alone. And its perfectly okay to not be okay.
