Zauna {COMPLETED}

Chapter 6

Nauna's POV

I clutch the envelope, still in shock. I got in. But I need to tell Zane."Zane? Where are you?"

Zane pokes his head out of his bedroom door. "In here. What do you need?" His hair is falling to one side of his face, revealing his blind eye. The beautiful blind eye.

I glance down at the envelope, then hold it out to him. I know what it says. It says "Nauna, you have been accepted into the Beldera State College for the following profession(s): Baking, Home Economics, Poetry. Please arrive on campus by Saturday August 5th."

"College?" Zane looks at me, shock and joy in his eyes. "Congratulations!" His hand rests on the door frame. He clearly doesn't get it.

"Zane... read where..." Beldera is a three night plane flight away. And I'll be gone for five years. 

"B-Beldera? But that's... that's a three night journey..." He looks at me, and I can hardly stand to look at him. Grief, sadness, anger, all of that is shown on his face. "You promised you'd never leave me! I trusted you!" 

As he spins around to go back into his room, I grab his arm. "Zane please! I want you to be happy for me! I've been dreaming of college forever. And we'll still talk. I'll call every night." By this point, I'm desperate. I've almost never seen him like this...

His gaze softens; I must look so desperate, clutching his arm, wide eyes, ears pinned back. "Okay. But I'll miss you. We can at least spend this night together." Sweeping me off my feet, Zane sets me down on his bed and leaves his room. A few minutes later, he comes back with a tank top and shorts of mine. He sets them next to me, stripping off his jacket and leaving that too. "There. Pajamas."

I giggle and reach for my shirt, raising it just above my belly button. Zane shrieks and covers his eyes, blindly tossing me my shirt. After I get my pajamas on, I snuggle up to Zane and he turns on My Little Horsies. Our favorite show. "Zane..."

He looks down at me. "Yes Nauna?"

"I love you. I'm sorry I never told you I applied for college... I just was scared of what would happen if I got accepted..." 

Zane kisses me. "I love too you baby..."

One Year Later

Zane's POV

I hold her sweater up to my face, breathing in her scent. It's been a year... one long, painful year. And I miss her. We talk every night, but it's not the same. I wake up to a quiet, empty house, not a sweet smelling, busy home. I lean my head back against the wall, and a tear slips down my cheek. I miss her, so much...

Nauna's POV

Breathing in the scent of him from his jacket, I begin to cry. It's been a whole year. I long to call him, but it's one in the morning... he'll never be up...

Zane's POV

I pick up my phone and stare at it. She'll never be awake. But I need her...

It rings once. Twice. Three times. I begin to give up. With the phone pressed to my ear, I squeeze my eyes shut. "Say something, I'm giving up on you..."

Nauna's POV

As I pick it up, my phone rings. Once. Twice. Three times. I answer, and let out a chocked sob. "Z-Zane?"

Zane's POV

"Z-Zane?" 

I begin to cry when her beautiful voice sounds in my ear. "Nauna... I miss you..." I hear crying. 

"Zane, oh Zane I miss you."

I long to hold her, to feel her pressed up against my side. To smell the cinnamon and apple in her hair. "I'm so sorry I let you go..."

Nauna's POV

"I'm so sorry I let you go..." His voice. I only hold my hand over my mouth, crying. 

"Zane... I want to come home." 

I hear a sniff. "I want you to come home. But... I don't think you should. Even after college."

"Wh-what?" I'm confused. He doesn't want me to go back to him?

Zane's POV

This is so hard... "Nauna, I don't think you should come home. I... this is too hard. Long distance relationships. I don't want you to hurt more that you are. And... to do that..." 

A lump forms in my throat, and I barely manage to choke the next few words out. "I don't think we should be together..."

Nauna's POV

"I don't think we should be together..."

My head snaps back. "Zane? Why?! You promised you'd always love me..." I twirl my engagement ring around my finger. Only a year and a half ago...

He sighs. "I know we're engaged. But... if you're going to be gone for the next four years... what's the point? I'm sorry..." Our connection cuts out, and I drop the phone, curled up on my dorm floor, sobs wracking my body. Warm arms wrap around me. My roommate.

"Shh. Nauna, it's okay. It'll be okay." Her voice...

"No, Sophia it's not fine. I loved him..." Staring at the ceiling in the dark, I close my eyes, all our memories together spinning through my mind. "I loved him..."

Zane's POV

I end our call, and lean against the wall, slowly sinking down, crying. I shouldn't have done that. The next months, I see her when I close my eyes, I see her when I fall asleep, never to touch and never to keep. 

"Nauna... I'm sorry... but it was for the best." Spinning around, I collapse on my bed, crying.

I loved her so much, but being away... I couldn't bear it. It still hurts now, a year after. But I'm coping. It's hard, but I've slowly erased every trace of her from my house. It's not our house anymore, it's my house... Wandering around quietly, I feel so alone... 

You only know you love her when you let her go... But I let her go...