Forbidden Attachments

Chapter 3 : We're Not Compatible

*5 months later*

*Serra's POV*

Lonan and I were in a meeting with Master Shaak Ti and Qui-gon discussing the upcoming mission assigned to me and my master. Throughout the meeting, he wouldn't let me point things out or even say anything. It was so irritating!

It's been 5 months now and this man is irking the mess out of me. I swear I can't stand him! When we got on the aircraft, he apparently had something to say.

"You really need to learn how to be quiet. When we are discussing something, you sit back and learn, not speak. Listen and not speak!" He chastised me angrily.

Here we go! Arguing...AGAIN!

"You know, I don't understand what your problem is, I'm just trying to help! I think my plan was very thought out! You would know if you listen for once!" I snapped back.

"That's your problem! You think too much and don't listen! You're so stubborn, you never want to take command!" He stood from his chair, getting red in the face.

"Stubborn? Me stubborn? You don't even let me suggest things or hear me out! You're so bossy!" I stood up as well, I wasn't afraid of him!

"I'm the BOSS!" He yelled, clenching his fist in frustration.

"No you're the mentor! Your not someone employer, I don't work for you! You're supposed to teach me how to become a Jedi Knight one day! How am I gonna be one if I CANT EVEN DO ANYTHING!?!?" I shouted back.

This had to be the worse argument we ever had. I usually backed down by now, I never had the energy to fight. It was draining and I wanted to be respectful, but he was absolutely infuriating!

"You think I asked to be a master of to a brat?! If I had it my way, you wouldn't even be here! I bet there's a much better person to be my padawan! Heck, there's a better chance for someone other than yourself to be qualified to be Jedi knight! By the looks of it, you won't ever be one!"

I was quiet, what he said stung. I was fighting back the tears but I had enough in me to say one more thing through gritted teeth,"I hate you."

By now my face was wet with tears and I left and went to my room. As I reached my room door, I thought against it and went to the clinic stationed onboard. I hid under the bed and just cried my eyes out.

'I hate him! I hate him! I hate him!'

How did I get stuck with such a cruel master like him?

*Lonan's POV*

'She hates me?'

I felt a sort of pain in my heart when she said that with a tear stained face. She was my first padawan and I wanted be the best master but...

I think I'm taking on the ways of my old master! He was cruel and ruthless, but very disciplined. I vowed to never be like him, but now I'm realizing that I'm becoming him. I don't know any other ways of training but those of my master's. I'm too harsh on her, I need to lighten up.

I thought back on my words and cringed, I know I hurt her. She's been through enough as it is. I need to apologize to her. This would be my first step, I guess.

I sighed heavily before putting the ship on autopilot and got up to find Serra. I went to her room door and knocked. There was no answer. I knocked again and a little droid opened the door, bouncing excitedly.

"Do you know where Padawan Nootan is?" I asked it. It shook its head and bounced back on her bed.

I left and checked the break room, but she wasn't there. I roamed the rest of the ship, still no sign of her. I gave up the search and returned to the cockpit feeling defeated. When we reached our destination, I asked a trooper to find her and tell her we've arrived.

'If he can find her.'

She doesn't deserve a master like the way I'm acting, she went through a lot and I'm not making it any better. I'm going to have to apologize as soon as I see her....if she'll talk to me that is. I don't want us to be like me and my old master.

Incompatible.