they didn't recognize me one bit.
I couldn't handle being around them.
I went back into my room.
I took our my razor. I've been clean for a year and a half. that's ending now.
I cut 2 times and cleaned up.
my scars never faded. just adding new ones.
I went out to sonic for lunch and got my usual, a large coke with a grilled cheese and mozzarella sticks.
Then I went back to my room and ate it.
I hear a knock.
"who is it?" I yell.
"Cameron" he says.
I freeze.
"come in" I say, regretting it.
he walks in.
"hey" he says
"hey"
"I thought we could talk, get to know each other" he says.
" we'll my past is something I keep to myself" I say, "what about you" I ask.
"we'll me and the others, except Hayes and Brent were all a possy in freshman year. we were rude jocks. We bullied this one girl, made it seem like we would stop and then just kept going, we even beat everyday" he says with a tear rolling down his face, "I regret that so much. one day Im gonna find her and hug her and tell her how sorry I am. I saved her from killing herself once, but she cut, I wonder if she still does".
I touch my wrists.
"That's horrible. why would you do that?" I say.
he shakes his head, he doesn't know.
"get the rest of the guys except Hayes and brent" I say.
he does so and they all walk in.
"now I want each one of you to tell me about this girl y'all bullied" I say.
they all tell me how much they wish the could apoligize. I think I should tell them.
"I wonder if we left any scars on her" jack J says with a tear.
"stay here" I say.
I go into the bathroom and change into a sports bra and nike shorts.
they did leave scars, many..
I walk out and they all stand there in scilence.
"you did leave scars" I say.
They all start crying and kicking things.
"Emma?" Aaron asks me.
I shake my head yes and I start crying.
"Cameron for the record, she didn't stop cutting" I say. which makes him feel worse. but hey, he kinda deserves it.
"can you forgive us?" Nash and Matt ask.
"yes" I say, "as long as this isn't fake like last time" I say.
they don't comment.
"it isnt" carter says.
I nod and put a Tshirt on.
